~marcus@TTBP

14 april 2022

Well, it looks like it's been around 4 years since I last posted a feel? That's a long time.

I'm not even sure what I want to write here, I just know that I really wanted to write something down.

This is feels, so what am I feeling? Complex feelings abound.

First, I am tired. There's an element of physical tired, but I also feel a touch of mental rundown. I don't sleep well in the best of times, and the last couple nights have been a bit restless.

I feel pressure lately to prove to myself that I can actually program. Funny, I've worked in tech for more than 20 years now, and I still feel that imposter syndrome so strong.

But, I also feel pretty good. I am respected and appreciated at home and at work. There are many hobbies to pursue and entertainment to consume. I wish I could output more creativity, but I haven't been feeling inspired much lately.

This has been a small update. Hope y'all are doing alright!

27 september 2018

Hi all.

I need to get this out of my brain today, so this seems like a god place to dump it.

Driving my kids to their before-school care this morning, I came across a car stopped in the road and a boy aout my son's age lying in the street. I did not see the collision, but the boy had run out and the car had struck him. I stopped to make sure people had called an ambulance and authorities and if anyone needed anything.

It appears to have been a more minor collision (thank God), and the boy was breathing and moving on his own before the ambulance arrived to take him to be checked out at the hospital. However, even not having witnessed it directly, I can't help but feel dread and anxiety in the pit of my stomach. As a parent, you think about your own kids.

Anyways, it was a scary item from my day today, and I needed to write something just to help clear my mind. Thanks for reading.

Marc

07 august 2018

"My heart has joined the thousand, for my friend stopped running today."

I am deeply saddened for the loss of ~abraxas. He was a wonderful townie, engaging and funny. I will truly miss him.

14 july 2018

CONTINUING TALES OF BALDUR'S GATE

My schedule is pretty crazy at the best of times, and sometimes I just can't get into the right mindset to play a game with more depth. So, when I have had time lately, I've either been shooting aliens (XCOM), or I've been playing number games that only require basic calculations (namely, a game called "Two Digits", which I completed on Steam within a few hours; it was a good meditation).

Finally, I have picked up the game yet again. Let's see, where did I leave off? Oh yes, my main character is a wizard named Blundarr. He has 4 HP and is made of glass. His only offensive spell is Burning Hands, so he has to get within arms reach to damage an enemy, and so he dies ... a LOT! I seem to be in the woods. My spells are depleted. I should probably rest ...

"You have been waylaid by enemies and must defend yourself!"

OHMIGODOHMIGODOHMIGOD! Gnolls and Ghasts and Half-Ogres! What the ever-living hell?!?

Whelp ... "YOU HAVE DIED!"

Loading ...

Let's ... try that again. Resting ... SUCCESS! Wait ... Xzar is complaining that we haven't reached Nashkel yet. What a whiner! Well, he has a point. I have no idea what this iron shortage is all about, so perhaps we'll find our way south from these woods ... at least the Hobgoblins I run into only sometimes kill Blundarr.

Three lives later, I've arrived across the woods and such to Nashkel. Now, what can we find wandering .. what the?!?

CHAPTER TWO

Ok, that was a bit jarring ... and the first chapter felt rather short. I didn't even advance my characters much ... Oh well, let's visit the Inn. Oh look! Someone who wants to kill me ...

YOU HAVE DIED!

Well, multiple characters afflicted with "Held" made quick work of my party. Let's try this again ...

YOU HAVE DIED!

But, wait, what?

YOU HAVE DIED!

Okay, Jaheira has Entangle, how about tha ...

YOU HAVE DIED!

Ok, maybe ...

YOU HAVE DIED!

But ...

YOU HAVE DIED!

ARGH! Okay, obviously I am both unprepared and unskilled and need to hold off on this challenge. Let's explore some of the surrounding wilderness and see about advancing our party's experience a bit and maybe gain a level for the rest of the team (since Jaheira has already leveled up).

Some Hobgoblins, some Xvarts, some wolves and wild dogs ... this isn't too bad. Let's continue a bit deeper ...

"You have been waylaid by enemies and must defend yourself!"

DAMNIT! Reloading ...

And here's a young child talking about random shambling, mumbling people? And an updated journal entry ... the child is "Footy", and he's gone mad trying to find his family in a crowd of animated corpses raised by some Necromancer called "Bassilius" ... I haven't spotted Bassilius yet anywhere, nor any army of undead. I'll keep my eyes open, though.

Wandering around, I find a small cave with some provisions. I'll hold on to those. Also, my inventories are getting full again. I should go sell what I can ...

Wait, what does this button on these scrolls do ... oh, hey, I can learn spells from scrolls! poof poof poof. Nice!

Let's go further west ... hey, someone wants us to help find treasure? Safana is her name ... wait, my party is full ... well, let's make a separate save here and kick Xzar and Montaron out. Onward! Wait, what are these ... Sirines? Wait, are my characters becoming confused or charmed or something? Wait ... no ... don't ... OH HELL NO!

Reloading ... let's leave that for a little later, shall we? Heading a bit further south now ...

This new area seems to have a bunch of Xvarts. They keep attacking me, but they're pretty weak. Oh, there's a little hut village here. Nexlit the Xvart? He's berating me for killing them. Well, they kept attacking me! Now he's siccing a bear on me? This could get dicey ...

Well, maybe not. Bear dead. 650 XP, WOOHOO!

This XP gathering is slow. I will mention that I still get Blundarr killed in a number of encounters. Save and load are my friends.

"You have been waylaid by enemies and must defend yourself!"

Gah! At least I got lucky this time and was able to kill the two Ghasts without casualties (though only barely). Let's go a bit further south ...

Some merchant is screaming about a bear now? No problem, I've beaten a few bears in my ti ... OH DEAR GOD WHAT JUST HAPPENED?

YOU HAVE DIED!

Seems this is a Mountain Bear, not your run-of-the-mill bear.

I could stretch this out with all the various ways in which I achieved TPK over the next hour, but I did manage to eventually strike it down with some carefully managed actions. Turns out the bear will run away if I burn it.I just had to be careful not to get anyone killed while Blundarr fired Burning Hands at it a few times, and Imoen took long-range shots with her bow. Xzar Does a bit of damage with his Minor Drain, and the other 3 keep taking strikes and getting healing as fast as I can make it happen.

With that, I think I'll put things down again. Until next time ...

YOU HAVE DIED! ... OK, now I'm done for tonight ...

30 june 2018

Baldur's Gate! BEGIN!

So, this game apparently came out in 1998. Even though it is 20 years old, I haven't a clue about the content of the game. It comes highly recommended, though, so I should be in for a real treat.

Spoiler Warning! There will be spoilers! Perhaps someone else out there has never played or read about the game, and may not want to read further if so.

OPENING CUTSCENE

Alright, we have a ... Paladin? ... fleeing from something ... a Death Knight? ... Death Knight tells the Paladin he's going to be first. Palading begs for his life ... get's thrown off the tower. That's ... actually pretty dark. Seems like I'm in for some STORY. Can't wait.

CHARACTER CREATION

Oh, hey, this feels like a mish-mash of D&D rules. I should be able to make something of this ... here we go ... Human, Male, Wizard, Transmuter. Play with the stats ... I'm sure 4 HP to start is plenty, right? (Spoiler: It's not really enough if you're as careless as I am.)

Spells ... Well, let's take Burning Hands first ... Mage Armor ... and Identify. That's a nice set to start with.

Name ... name ... I'm no good at this ... Blundarr! That'll do.

And now to play ...

PROLOGUE

Oh, hey, a lot of these guys are labeled "Tutor". I guess this is the in-game tutorial section. Let's see what this non-Tutor person says ... oh, he lent an Identify Scroll to someone? My first fetch quest! How quaint!

There seem to be a lot of these fetch quests here. I can also purchase stuff from the innkeeper.

My only complaint so far: dear god it takes forever to walk across the map!

Anyways, I won't try to recall each and every step here. I completed all the little side-quests I could find, then returned to my "father". Apparently I have a childhood friend, Imoen. She'll obviously be a party member later (or she'll die; we'll see which).

Gorion and I are leaving. And, of course "IT'S A TRAP!" Is that the Death Knight again? Looks like it. Gorion puts up a great fight, but I was pretty sure he was gonna die.

CHAPTER ONE

Look it's Imoen! Yup, I can get her to join my party. She mentions a letter that Gorion received. Now, where did that fight happen? Let's walk around a bit ... it's odd that Imoen isn't following me ... is that a Wolf over there? Wait ... oh no ...

YOU ARE DEAD!

Well, where's the last save? Oh, in the Prologue. Well that'll teach me to save more often. Guess I have to watch my father die again.

(a few minutes later)

Alright, now, how do I move both characters ... wait, here's a button to select the whole party! Awesome!

Wandering forth, I meet with Montaron and Xzar ... they seem ... slightly less than sane, but I add them to my party anyways. Oh, look, Xzar has a Wand of Magic Missile! YOINK! That'll come in handy for my main character.

I'm supposed to meet friends at the Friendly Arms, so let's head north.

It's pretty dark when I get there. Someone is telling me that I'm the peron they've been waiting for ... ok ... let's play along ... yup: "IT'S A TRAP!"

Another fight to prove just how fragile my character is: YOU ARE DEAD!

Luckily, I saved just a bit before. Montaron seems to be a brawler, he and Imoen can handle this while Blundarr hides. With that taken care of, let's find my actual friends. Khalid and Jaheira seem like a good couple of brawlers, which I think I'm going to need. The story is pushing me towards Nashkel and this "Iron Crisis". I guess I'll head south.

BEREGOST

Well, here's a quaint little town. Let's explore. A few places to rest and drink. Wait, why is this little guy picking my pocket? Let's talk to him again ... and he's taken more gold! Damn you! smash I'll take that gold back, thanks ... wait! What's that about my Journal? Oh ... I was supposed to retrieve his boots. Well damn ... quick load ... sorry about that, hold on to my gold pieces for a moment, I'll be back.

Another interesting little interaction: I am hired as "protection" for someone named Silke. She tells me not to even talk to the people coming to "attack" her. This seems like another trap ... yup. I won't be party to your evil schemes! smash ... oh! A Quarterstalff +1 from Silke's body! Blundarr will use that.

FOREST SOUTH OF BEREGOST

I'd love to say this area was uneventful, but I died several times because I am simply made of glass. That said, I've gotten more used to pausing, assigning orders, and using formations to make use of each character's strengths. I've used up the Wand of Magic Missile already, though, so Blundarr is a bit more useless in a fight.

Jaheira has reached the next level! Seems like a good place to stop for now. Hopefully, I'll die a bit less in my next play session, and maybe I can reach Nashkel soon!

Hope anyone who reached the end of this enjoyed the journey!

26 june 2018

OK!

It's been a while. I've decided that I'm going to play a game from my vast collection and blog about it as I go. Just something to pass the time, and maybe it will be interesting to a few people.

Now, when I say vast collection, I do mean pretty vast. I have 709 games on GOG.com and 584 games on Steam. A lot of them are smaller little indie titles, some are nostalgic classics, a few are more recent big titles from larger companies. I did what any sane townie would do to choose a game ... I asked in IRC. ;) When I mentioned I hadn't played Baldur's Gate before, it was suggested I give that a go. And so, tonight I am installing the original Baldur's Gate and its expansion, Tales of the Sword Coast (from GOG). I won't begin playing yet, but this post is my statement of intent. I'm looking forward to this little project of mine!

Ja Ne!

20 february 2018

Hello, town!

It's been a while yet again. As usual, I don't post much unless something consciously reminds me that I can and probably should. Recently, a townie told me that they had gone and read my feels entries, and I thought to myself "I haven't even read my own feels entries in a while ... let's do that!"

And so, I took my time reading through my entries. It was a good exercise in self-reflection, and it reminded me that I want to put some more effort into a few of my creative ideas again. Perhaps do some more fiction writing.

Also, my oldest son, who is 9 years old now, is learning Python, with my help. He wants to lear, and so I am slowly introducing him to the language and trying to convince him that a slow pace is best for truly understanding what he is doing.

So far (using Python 2.7.x), he has a fairly good grasp of:

The "print" statement
Assigning values to variables
Using "raw_input()" to capture input from the user
Basic "if (condition): (action)" statements

The topics I've introduced that I want him to get a better understanding of are:

Modifying the value stored in variables
Using "str()" and "int()" to modify the type of a given value
Using "while" loops
More complex "if ... elif ... else" statements
Using "import" statements

For only a weekend of learning, I think we're making progress. The piece of code we are currently playing with as part of our learning is a quick "Guess the Number" game I wrote with him asking and answering questions beside me. The code is here (note that it is dead simple with no error handling):

import random

answer = random.randint(1,101)
guess = 0

while guess != answer:
  guess = int(raw_input("Guess a number between 1 and 100: "))
  if guess > answer:
    print str(guess) + " is too high."
  elif guess < answer:
    print str(guess) + " is too low."
  else:
    print "Correct! " + str(answer) + " is the answer!"
    playagain = raw_input("Would you like to play again? (Yes or No) ")
    if playagain == "Yes":
      answer = random.randint(1,101)
      guess = 0

The "playagain" option is something we discussed while adding it to a previous version of the code. He's been good so far about the slow pace I'm going, but he does keep wanting to jump ahead. This is fine, though; I'm happy that he wants to explore the code himself, and if I'm not free to help him he sometimes tries things out himself to see if he can figure it out on his own. I'm quite proud of him. :D

That's all for now. Take care, town! I will write again soon! (I think ...)

08 december 2017

I really enjoyed the tilde.town movie night. It was great to share in the nostalgia and chat while watching the movie. It was great fun.

11 october 2017

I don't like opening myself up.

Right at this moment, I'm feeling lost and scared and useless. Writing that sentence was very difficult, because I don't like other people to know when I feel weak.

This isn't about sadness. Crying, empathy, emotions ... those aren't weaknesses to me. Fear. Fear of change. Fear of failure. It's fear that is my greatest challenge, my greatest weakness.

I always feel like I should be hiding or running away. Scratch that, I feel like I'm already hiding and running away from most challenges.

My mind is screaming at me to erase this post. I fear people will misunderstand. I fear I'm wasting people's time.

23 august 2017

It's been a while. I usually vent myself out and iteract on IRC, but today I feel disconnected and don't feel like I want the synchronicity of IRC for my feels. And so, here we are.

This week has been stressful and difficult for no good reason. I have trouble sleeping, I flake out frequently during the day, and I feel like I'm not good enough to do the things I need to do. All in all, I'm a bit down. It's hard to tell with me, though. I'll smile and joke and play about, but sometimes I just don't feel the connection to those actions, and my mind retreats inwards.

I think money is part of my worries right now. I feel bad that I'm feelig bad about money when I know I'm in a fairly good place. Even others here on ~town have indicated worse financial stress than I have. Still, as the sole income for a family of 4, in the sometimes volatile tech industry ... I worry.

Worry doesn't consume me, though, even as it weighs heavily. I've found that the older I get, the more nuanced and intricate my emotional state becomes. I'm re-visiting some philosophical concepts I've grazed upon in the past. Stoicism has always been a set of ideas that resonate with me, and I'd like to know more about Zen Buddhism, so I'm meandering through books and online resources and thinking deep thoughts (or shallow thoughts about deep thinking; I'm never sure which, really ;) ).

On another front, I've been losing myself in video game ideas and concepts. I have many ideas, but no execution (yet?). Actually, I should say I'm losing myself in creative ideas and cocepts, not limited to video games. Novel and short story ideas, visual and mechanical art concepts, music, video media ... so many ideas across all sorts of creative skills ... wherein I am nothing more than an amateur dabbler. I always tell myself to pick one skill and pursue some ideas, but perhaps I simply have more fun imagining the ideas themselves. There's a kid of fulfillment and pure enjoyment in following a creative thought and allowig it to blossom in my mind. Sure, sharing it with others would be a nice bonus ... but I can be happy in my imaginary worlds on my own, too.

Oh! I borrowed the first season of Mr. Robot from the library! I'll start watching that tonight.

I'm out of steam. Take care, ~town! Much love!

~ marcus

13 january 2017

I haven't written in here for a long while, but it seems like there's a bit of a lull in activity on TTBP, so I'll happily step in to fill the void. Here are a bunch of statements in a sort of free-flow of thought ...

How are you all doing? It seems like so many people are stressed out lately over so many different things. To be fair, I don't blame people for feeling like the world in general is spiraling out of control. To me, it feels like we are in the midst of some serious existential changes, and that seems to be resonating into even the smallest aspects of people's lives.

If you're feeling down, or stressed, or happy even ... feel free to reach out for a chat or whatever. I like to think I can be a good listener, most of the time.

Anyways, I was gonna go all philosophical in this post but decided I didn't feel like twisting all the feels I'm feeling into impotent words and sentences. Some days I feel like I should write a book about things in my head, and then I start putting it down and it's just not right, and so I stop.

I need to dig deeper into stoicism. What I've learned in passing resonates with me very well, but I'm always worried that I know too little about what being stioc actually means.

I like this qoute:

Develop a flexible identity: Don't believe too much the character we play, don't take ourselves too seriously, use some humor.

Pema Chodron (American, Tibetan Buddhist)

I've noticed one of my online habits is a form of people-watching. I spend time on reddit and HN and other places and simply read the comments. I don't follow many links, I simply want to know what people are talking about. When I do follow links, I spend a lot of time reading the comments on THOSE pages, too. People are fascinating, interesting, and frequently exasperating. It's fun!

Anyways, I hope you are all doing well. Cheers!

Marcus

31 august 2016

Because sanqui's post might have come across wrong, there's no worries about ttbp breaking. One of the joys of tilde.town is that we're all just happy to share, and thigs break all the time. I don't want people to feel like they can't use these feels tools to the breaking point. That's hw god community software evolves, right? ;)

Anyways, I've been down a bit lately, but with far less reason than many people who have been sharing. As is typical of me, when I feel like my sadness is worth less than the sadness of others I simply bury it and wait for it to go away. That never works, of course, so I went out and had a nice lunch with a good friend and we talked about it. It was pheomenal and, while I still find thigs to be down about, I'm feeling better than I felt a few days ago.

I really want to help with the various ideas that are foating around for improving discoverability on tilde.town. I never have much time, though, and when I do I'm usually burnt out already and just want some down time. The town is a community that I really believe is totally awesome, though, and I want to see it thrive.

What I need to do first, though, is get my personal stuff in order. My house is a total mess, and I have never truly fiished a personal project that I've started. I need to fix that, and I stumbled across something that may help me. More to comes as I unravel my life plans.

Being 34 going on 35 has been a very difficult year for me mentally, I think. I feel like I haven't accomplished as much as I should have. I feel like I've wasted a lot of my talent and potential (when I believe I have any talent at all, of course). Especially financially, I feel so strained and feel like I'm wasting so much money. I've never been good with planning, but slowly over this year I've started to get the basics dow, for my own sanity.

Anyways, this is probably the longest feels post I've made. I hope to make more of these as I get into the swing of sharig what's on my mind. Take care, folks!

23 august 2016

Hi all!

It's been a while. So, TTBP is all about feels, and my feels have been pretty good. Hello to new users of TTBP and new tilde town members in general.

It seems like there's some good talk going on about how to continue to grow our little community in a sustainable way. This is good. I hope I can help in whatever way is needed.

Anyways, back to the grind! I never have much time these days. :P

21 july 2016

So much going on these days. The next 6-8 weeks are going to be fairly tight financially, but after that it should all start to look better, barring any serious issues. fingers crossed

22 june 2016

Hi!

It's been a while. I've just been busy. Feels still occur, I just haven't been writing about them.

I am currently starting my 7-year-old son down the path of programming. We are reading through the book that originally taught me to program, and will be following along (in Python instead of BASIC). This is gonna be fun!

Off I go! Excelsior!

14 june 2016

Well, it's been a while. I've been mostly offline and busy with real life ... specifically with performing on stage in The Who's Tommy. The run has ended, so I'm not easing my way back into digital life, but what a thrill to be back on stage!

Real talk: I'm preoccupied by money right now. Summer is coming, with additional daycare costs, and money will be a bit tight. Nothing serious, and I've got everything covered, but I never like being so tight on funds. I'll feel a lot better come September 29th, when my finances get a bit more breathing room again.

I hope all is well in our community and elsewhere. There are horrible tragedies occurring in the world, some very close to home. Stay safe, stay strong.

31 may 2016

The pace is picking up this week. Opening night for Tommy is this Friday, so the last few rehearsals are all this week. I'm so excited to be back on stage for the first time since High School! This is gonna be awesome! :)

25 may 2016

It's been a busy few weeks. I haven't gotten back to my side project for a bit. I need to get back on that.

Much love to all you! Wish I had more to update!

24 may 2016

Oh man,

It's 01h20 here right now and I'm about to stop working. I'll be up at 06h00.

I negrlected the work I should have been doing on this holiday long weekend because the weather was just too good to pass up. I got a bunch of garden work in, and I cleaned out my car. All in all a great non-tech weekend.

I come back and find that ttbp is thrumming with activity. This is awesome!

I'm not going to stay up much longer, but I'll add more tomorrow when my brain isn't melting due to lack of sleep.

18 may 2016

Hello townies!

Right now my wife and I are doing the planning for making scones and shortbread cookies in enough volume to feed to 60 people on Friday. This will go with the pigs in a blanket, Chip Shop Curry, and some bite-size sticky toffee pudding deserts that my friend is making.

I can't wait, but it's going to be a lot of work. :)

17 may 2016

I don't feel much like writing today. I'm writing test code for work in a framework I dislike, in a set of test suites that are terribly messy and hard to work with.

Guess I'm just feeling frustrated today.

16 may 2016

There's been a bit of discussion here on ttbp about how tilde.town could be seen as a kind of fork of the 90s internet. I can get behid that sentiment. I agree that there's a certain amount of nostalgia that could trap the unwary townie ito some sort of creative stagnation, but my personal experience is one of exploration and growth.

The diversity of age and background of the more active townsfolk, while still not as wide as it could be, is an improvement over other small web communities I have been a part of. I find that, for me, this has pushed me to try new ideas and tools alongside my older skill set.

I love you all, townsfolk! You make me a better me, and that is awesome!

In other news, I have started doig a deep dive into the C programming language in an effort to catch my knowledge back up. It's been a long while since I wrote any C, and even then my past experience was anything but structured.

I've started to examine simple socket code in C. Rather than just simply take the code as it is, I'm taking a good amount of time to examine the header files, the functions, and the structure of the code. I'm starting with a fairly decent understanding of computers in general, but this deep dive is (in theory) bringing that understanding to another level, giving me a better grasp of the underlying system calls, as well as a much better grasp of the tools I am using (in this case GCC and make).

It's slow going, but I seem to be enjoying the process so far.

15 may 2016

So, I've been working on a new project which involves spinning up a VPS as a backend. It's been a while since I did any systems administration, so I'm going slowly and trying to make sure I'm doing things in a sustainable way. I'm only running a tiny VPS, so resource management will be something to pay attention to.

Ideally, the server will be the backbone of a buddy bot. I have plans for what he'll be able to do, but they're quite ambitious. Not sure how far I'll get ...

I wrote the above before reading through my feels from yesterday. Guess I'm repeating myself. :P

Oh well. Nice to know I'm consistent!

14 may 2016

Hello my avid readers! Today I have decided to jump in and get some fun stuff actually done. I've spun up a tiny Digital Ocean droplet and I'm working through setting it up for some special projects I have in mind. First, though, I need to secure the server and remember all my sysadmin stuff.

I'm excited to start working on this stuff again, but I'm afraid I'll lose focus again and things will sit domant for months at a time. I really hope I get the momentum going enough to keep going. Gotta push myself!

12 may 2016

... but Gods haunt my dreams,
Reflections of an imperfect reality,
Perfected.
They taunt me, mocking my lust, my pride,
... my vanity.

So, I'm feeling strange after some really strange dreams last night. Seems like my brain decided to work out a bunch of my insecurities while I was sleeping.

Truth be told, I feel very old lately. Maybe not physically; I'm not feeling tired in that sense. My thoughts feel heavier, though. I feel my responsibilities more accutely.

I'm still a jovial son-of-a-bitch, damnit! Life is good! (I mean that.)

Sometimes I think too much. I wouldn't be me if I stopped, though. ;)

11 may 2016

Todaqy will either be a very frustrating day, or a very rewarding day. Only the code will decide ...

10 may 2016

Oh man, ttbp is starting to sprout wings. There were so many new feels today! I'll have to muck around some more and see if I'll be able to keep up with reading all the feels through the ttbp interface.

I'm tired again today, because I'm insane and stay up late when I don't really need to, over and above the work I was doing last night.

I'm also frustrated with some of the aspects of work, as it often feels like I am thrown into pieces of code and asked to write pieces of code without breaking legacy, while I don't actually have a full and firm grasp on the legacy functionality. Don't get me wrong, I learn pretty quickly, and the test framework is actually pretty robust ... but so many things WITHIN the code feel so haphazard, and I have to tweak everything 5+ times to get even close to the results I'm looking for.

But, that said, I'm a pretty happy guy, so I'm doing well. I did open a can of Dr. Pepper this morning to get a small caffeine kick, something I haven't done very often this month (by choice; working on cutting back on the sugary drinks a bit).

Welcome to today, enjoy it!

09 may 2016

Oh, the feels. I'm so tired, but happy, but also stressed out, but also excited. I just feel all the feels today.

06 may 2016

Well, I was feeling unwell yesterday, so I slept most of the day. I'm not totally recovered, but I'm well enough to be at work. So, still sleepy, but life goes on.

We are now 4 weeks away from opening night of Tommy! I'm very excited to be performing on stage for the first time since high school. Should be a great show!

04 may 2016

Another day, more feels! Today looks like it will be a busy work day, with lots of code to write and re-write. Should be fun!

I've been a bit stressed out lately due to monetary concerns. I'm not in financial trouble, per se, but I'd prefer to have a better buffer saved up. That being said, part of my anxiousness is that I can see the end of my debt load (excluding mortgage) creeping closer, and I want it to end FASTER, DAMNIT!

Anyways, I'm otherwise good. Thanks, ttbp, for making it easy to dump out my feels each day for all the world to see. ;)

03 may 2016

Yet another day, yet another post here on the town. Today's feeling: sleepy with a hint of sass.

02 may 2016

Well, look what we have here! Thank you ~endorphant for this lovely little piece of code to post our ~~feelings~~ with.

I do't know if I could ever keep this up, but it seems like a painless process so far!