What I am up to now
As of the date 14th November 2018 A.D., I’m engaged in part-time employment in the kitchen of a restaurant of “Italian casual dining”.
I decided to work part-time instead of full-time because I still want to commit to volunteering. What kind of volunteering? I am helping out with the administrative tasks of running a soup kitchen, of sorts, for migrant-workers in Singapore. I am volunteering with a non-profit organisation. More info here
What makes me want to do the above?
I want to please my god, so both of the efforts above are what I feel called to do after reading the Bible, where I can find out about what my god likes and doesn’t like.
I’ve discovered that art (as in art-making) helps me process my experiences, including emotions and states of being, and in this direction, I’ve made a few paintings and put them up for sale (on an online store).
I want to stay tuned to the mystery behind (the impulse and/or need of) art-making - this means I have to maintain a position/stance of patience, and even surrender, to see what comes up and when it comes up.
I entrust this matter, as with all matters in my life, to my god, who is good, and whose ways are blameless.
More concretely, this means being aware - developing an intuition, even - for what feeds my art - as an aside, perhaps, this is perhaps related to the somewhat unsavoury character that has been attributed to artists in general, such as Hesse’s portrayal of an artist-womaniser in the fictional story of ‘Narcissus and Goldmund’ - and giving myself permission to pursue it/those, whatever it/they may be.
Somewhat related to my paintings are a visual journal that I am maintaining (and hosting on Tumblr). It’s been suggested to me, by an art-therapist, to keep one; if my god is willing, it will be inspiration that a future me could come across.