~zntznt@TTBP



14 september 2020

This week has been incredibly sad. My closest coworker passed away. We did not know each other for much, but we talked a lot during these last two years, he always had nothing but praise for me. What hit me the hardest are the circumstances. You would think that when everything is going amazing, things will stay amazing, but they don't. Out of nowhere everything can be snatched away from you. I don't know how to assimilate that fact, but I know I cannot live without knowledge of it anymore. How do I want to live? For now, I want to do what he knew I was capable of doing.



23 august 2020

I had a dream where I visited a few places that I've been to in previous dreams. I sometimes wonder if these places coexist in a similar place in my memories.



18 august 2020

Virtues can rise out of anything that empowers the dignity of life. You don't need to be part of what's socially deemed virtious to live a worthwhile life. A lot of people follow discourse without understanding it just because it's assumed that representing it leads to virtue.



17 august 2020

I feel continuously attracted towards many different things that I barely ever get deep into any of those. Right now I am thinking about Processing 3, an idea that came out of nowhere just today, and I know that in a couple of days I'll be interested in another thing entirely. And just like that, I am browsing the tools, but I never learn how to use them properly. I sometimes feel like a fraud because of this. I know about so many different things but behind it there's nothing but the knowledge of their existence.



16 august 2020

I've been able to remember a bit of my dream lately. Today's one had to do with driving around. I don't really like cars. In fact I barely even need them. If I could ride a bycicle everywhere that would be just perfect.



15 august 2020

I've never been someone who has belonged to anything. I'm a piece of wood, drifting on an endless sea. Sometimes I end up somwehere, But it's never for long. One day I'll be far, far away from here. And one day, maybe, just maybe, I'll return.