18 august 2021
time to start writing things here, but i am still not sure how open i can be about everything that's going on with my life here. i am roughly a week sober after drinking every day for most of the summer, and also taking mdma about 5 times since mid june. not too bad as far as i'm concerned. this past weekend i took a solo camping trip up into woods of northern california, which was amazing despite all the wildfires. i hated the 100+ degree weather as much as i loved the local town.
i rented a jetski and fucking ran that thing all over the lake. never knew rentals can go 50mph... the local museum had 1936 issue five yuan bill which i thought to be fake, but after some research nline, i figured that china really wrote english on their bills back in early 20th century. how fucking stupid is that? yes, i'm judgemental, if you don't like it - fuck off. anyway, later that day i randomly drove into a local speedway, which turned out to have a racing event. all kinds of cars - civics with replaced engines, big ass go karts, shit liike that. ridiculous but i dig it.
some other cool shit went down that day, and on sunday after but i don't feel like sharing it. i don't think it would be interesting to read.
-- music mega rant --
i got my electric guitar back from my friend after a few years on Monday. Now I have 3 guitars and 4 computers. fuck yea. imma go try to find an amplifier on craigslist maybe in a couple of days. speaking of music, a girl from my work said we should do a group jam or go to an open mic or something. that's fucked, i'm not fdoing that. im going to have a hard time explaining that the music im into is quite offensive, and the best i can do is guttermouth - lipstick for a mother's day special.
open mics generally are quite pathetic. i've never been to one to properly judge but this image of some random dude walking up to a mic with his little piece of shit acoustic guitar, then playing I-V-IV-I progression and singing about love and stars and broken hearts or whatever bullish... just really looks stupid to me. and then you have applause and there's a server walking around bringing you $13 drinks that barely have any liquor in them, and you also have to behave yourself when you're listening to it. fuck this.
id rather go and drink coors with my buddy Glen at his garage or backyard and hopelessly try to combine his guitar improv with my bass synths and a drum machine for a sythpunk project we'll never make public or drive over to Axel and hang out with him and his mom trying to recreate masterpieces like lil aaron - drugs (which we actually did on monday night).
so yeah, that means im not going to an open mic. no way jose. i wanna blast power chords and get blackout drunk, not pretend to be liking someone elses piece of shit generic imagine dragons cover.
-- end rant
anyway, i want a beer because im bored. but im not going to have one.
cool news from work - i fucked up and measured voltage in a cell using a basic arduino. all i got in output is noise. so that's a week down the drain but hey it's an experiment so fuck it. i gotta go to grad scholol at some point, because im getting very comfortable in this academic lifestyle. that;s my plan for the next few days- work on grad school ideas.