25 september 2020
Changing one's mental narrative feels quite strange. It is strange to interrupt the habitual thoughts, even if those thoughts are negative and harmful. It is scary, it can feel like betraying what I know is true (i.e. that I'm a bad person), and giving into believing the lies others would tell me just to make me feel better (i.e. that I'm a good person). It has taken me awhile to get to the point where I can finally see that the negative beliefs I had about myself were not as grounded in reality as I had thought.