04 november 2020
I love (neo)vim. lol.
Finally, for the first time in my life, I am beginning the process of building an intentional, ergonomic desk setup. I bought a laptop stand, installed a monitor arm for my second monitor, and have a sit-stand desk coming in tomorrow. The last major upgrade I need to make is finding and buying a decent chair to replace the broken one I've been using, and then I can finally put back the last of the books I've been using for all my DIY height adjustments. It's weird being so young and developing so many physical issues because of computer work, but in the end, I am very lucky that I can now begin to properly afford better equipment at all.
The momentum is still going strong – I am tentatively hopeful, more than I am afraid, but not by a lot. Black liberation and global liberation go hand in hand. Fight the power, free the prisoners, feed the people.
Sometimes I feel too scrutinized. This is something that has always been true: I have always wanted to avoid the eyes of watchers.
My motivation levels have been steadily sinking, and it's hard to say if it's because of carpel tunnel or the lockdown, since they happened around the same time. I feel like I'm latently stressed a lot because I feel so much frustration at everything going on right now. I am worried that there's too much coverage of the anti-lockdown protestors, I am disturbed by the discrepancy in news treatment of COVID in the US vs. the way China's struggle was sensationalized and dehumanized, and just... all of the greed, and selfishness, and entitlement on display.
It's been about a month since my last post. Even though not a whole lot has theoretically changed in my life since then, so much has. It's weird to process.
notably less wrist pain today. rsi sucks but it's getting better and it's nice to see progress, however slow.
took a small walk around my neighborhood yesterday. it was peaceful. there was a cat sleeping in the overgrown grass behind an apartment, and a drowsy but not inattentive labrador on someone's front porch.
it was nice to remember that we can still go outside and get some sunlight and fresh air, even through this period of quarantine/ social distancing.
Today I found out my aunt is going through chemotherapy for breast cancer, and my grandma is in the hospital now (we're waiting to hear back about what happened, but my mom says maybe from shock?) and I'm really sad and worried
I have the itch to learn something new and kind of irrelevant and maybe even a waste of my time at the moment, which is some new programming language. Right now, I've been focusing everything on JavaScript and front-end frameworks. Lately, I'm really into Vue. Because of this, though, I'm afraid I'm going to lose my grasp of C++, which I honestly enjoyed more than JavaScript, but everything I'm doing right now is browser-oriented, so JavaScript is the most practical way forward. For some reason, I really want to just sit down and go for Python, because of how much everyone loves Python. More than that, though, I want to dive into Ruby, and I don't even know why. I also want to learn less "mainstream" languages, like Haskell.
What I also would like to spend all my time doing is making AR experiments with Unity and ARKit and C++, I want to learn touchdesigner and max and make more VJ stuff and fuck around with analog hardware and circuit bending.
I wish I was still a student, because all I want to do is learn things and make things.