~hegz@TTBP



24 march 2022

Noisy Times

Past two days were very stressfull for me I couldn't find time to record any feels, I was absorbed in an event with our college's racing team where we showed our vehicle in a booth for people and potential sponsors (pic: http://paste.c-net.org/VictoryWinded) I really don't like managerial roles, I made 3 hours worth of calls during the day and came home really late, at times like this I wish I would have instead been sitting in my comfy bed browsing the internet or working on one of my side projects which I never have time to get going. Life never goes as expected though and most things we do and hate may be of use in the future, that's how I look at things that I don't enjoy doing.

It's 2AM and I should be prepping for a quiz for tomorrow but instead I'm procrastinating writing this, guess I'll go now.



20 march 2022

my first feel

I've had a org journal around that I would visit from time to time to write some of my (mostly depressing) thoughts about myself or my actions, sometimes It helps me think rationally and reflect back on myself, anyway It always makes me feel better when I'm writing what I feel so why not share it here with the town's awesome community!

Really loving this community so far and want to explore it more, I don't have much time though these days due to my college and my personal life being extremely fast paced and busy this semster, I'll mostly be posting feels here and hanging out on IRC from time to time though!

oversleeping is a bitch

I hate napping in the evening since cuz I usually oversleep, I would then wake up feeling grumpy and feel like my day is ruined, I can't sleep in my usual time for I just woke up so I gotta deal with it and just stay up, I will have a much less quality of sleep for the night as I already have to wake up early for my college.

tl;dr, evening naps are the worst.

do suckless tools suck less?

I'm currently trying to drive dwm with dmenu and st, always wanted to get deep into the suckless eco system, I like the concept of minimal tools and bottom up approaches (yes i3 I'm looking at you), I've been very absorbed into tooling lately and I think I should care less about tools and more about what I should be doing, but It's easier said than done for me, I sometimes think I take being a nerd too personally (but who doesn't anyway right?, we are all based in some way or another).

reminds me of that internship I applied for recently, which I added a little note about myself and I had a huge urge to mention my tiling wm for some reason :')

Will I regret it? only time will tell.

mood and music

Whenever I'm sad I always love to listen to sad music, not sure why but It should be the opposite for the greater good but that's how it works with me, It's a "positive feedback vs negative feedback loop" kind of thing, where listening to sad music will make me feel sadder (undamped oscillation?).