m455's poetry

here is some poetry to externalize big feelings i've experience in my life. sometimes the words come to me from nothing (things i don't notice), and sometimes they come to me when i have feelings that inexplainably match up with the feelings that are evoked in me from music and/or scenery.

with my poetry, i originally aimed to get out stuck feelings that diary-style journalling wouldn't do for me. specifically, the overwhelming physical sensations that i get from big emotions.

but, lately, i've realized that that's not the only thing i'm doing--i discovered that i'm also trying to recreate how i felt while i was writing each poem by providing what i saw or heard while i was writing on instagram. the only problem, is that and visuals don't exist here--only the written part of the poem. i wan't to change this some day, when my brain will let me.

i list the newest poems at the top of the lists below, but here's a little table of contents for jumping between the years if this shit continues to grow lol:

2026

  1. i can't talk to people

2025

  1. fucked by life
  2. water bottle
  3. im losing my mind
  4. dead leaf in a forest
  5. my mind in time
  6. no name
  7. death and a goodbye
  8. it came to this
  9. project myself
  10. hard
  11. fake love
  12. i want to but i cant
  13. im almost back
  14. you live
  15. a place of warmth
  16. life, fuckin cut it out, man
  17. make it all stop
  18. lock me in a box
  19. broke free by limits
  20. lost in a forest
  21. im broken
  22. vanished
  23. bashed against the wall
  24. spoon
  25. hemorrhage
  26. surrounded in warmth
  27. only the forest may hear me
  28. i didn't know
  29. alone
  30. the father, the son, and the holy spirit
  31. pain
  32. between the weight
  33. emptied
  34. i can no longer do
  35. the night sky will always be there for me
  36. body disconnected
  37. at night
  38. not again
  39. that moment
  40. every detail
  41. have a seat beside me
  42. you never made room
  43. nothing prepares you for this
  44. fast thoughts
  45. blast off
  46. fall sunset
  47. depressed
  48. submerged
  49. park bench
  50. cover my skin
  51. sit back and relax
  52. let it pass
  53. getting through it
  54. what do you want from this
  55. hang my coat up
  56. mind
  57. remove the watifs
  58. the by-product of torment
  59. thriving, blooming
  60. bathe in comfort
  61. guide me
  62. tried my best
  63. cooled down
  64. hurt hidden by anger
  65. bleachers
  66. numb for now
  67. lift me up
  68. to be heard
  69. please, mother nature
  70. attacked
  71. still here
  72. my soul is complete
  73. here to live
  74. clear headed, mostly
  75. vulnerable
  76. feelings
  77. refusal
  78. fountain
  79. i want you
  80. hang in there
  81. puffs
  82. tear me apart
  83. blood
  84. sunbleached
  85. for friends
  86. unstoppable
  87. unleash
  88. re-entering this world
  89. from your point of view
  90. hold onto it tight
  91. pause life
  92. in the driver's seat
  93. you told me
  94. don't tell me
  95. handle yourself
  96. happiness on a string
  97. i see
  98. a love letter to nail painting
  99. who i thought i was
  100. i am
  101. torn out of myself
  102. a different sky
  103. keeping going
  104. a hug from mother nature
  105. mind vs fire
  106. pulled back into reality
  107. dust
  108. my brain fills my chest
  109. a blanket of chimes
  110. this rock
  111. in another place
  112. finger feelings
  113. grainy lights
  114. i am the coal of your tree
  115. i thought it was me i thought it was them
  116. i know you're somewhere in there
  117. you need to
  118. almost taken over
  119. above all, stretched too thin
  120. tiptoeing towards despair
  121. its gone
  122. on that island
  123. it hits harder when you feel like you've got nothing left
  124. warm body glazed mind
  125. i can let me be me
  126. day dreaming another brain