m455's poetry
here is some poetry to externalize big feelings i've experience in my life. sometimes the words come to me from nothing (things i don't notice), and sometimes they come to me when i have feelings that inexplainably match up with the feelings that are evoked in me from music and/or scenery.
with my poetry, i originally aimed to get out stuck feelings that diary-style journalling wouldn't do for me. specifically, the overwhelming physical sensations that i get from big emotions.
but, lately, i've realized that that's not the only thing i'm doing--i discovered that i'm also trying to recreate how i felt while i was writing each poem by providing what i saw or heard while i was writing on instagram. the only problem, is that and visuals don't exist here--only the written part of the poem. i wan't to change this some day, when my brain will let me.
i list the newest poems at the top of the lists below, but here's a little table of contents for jumping between the years if this shit continues to grow lol:
2026
- no fear
- unable
- love and joy
- gone
- a chapter done
- friends are there
- released
- stuck
- into nothing
- it's really hard
- grow with me
- growing
- don't care
- damnit
- removed from life
- until the mourning
- misuse me
- you dumb fuckup
- two sweethearts
- your answer is where you're not
- poke holes
- pottery
- filling in the spaces
- the labrynths of life
- i'm doin alright
- the essence
- i was a tourist
- i am me
- i miss them
- i'm coming
- buttered fingers
- i can't talk to people
2025
- house of targ
- fucked by life
- softened
- water bottle
- im losing my mind
- dead leaf in a forest
- my mind in time
- no name
- death and a goodbye
- it came to this
- project myself
- hard
- fake love
- i want to but i cant
- im almost back
- you live
- for my wizard friend
- a place of warmth
- life, fuckin cut it out, man
- make it all stop
- lock me in a box
- broke free by limits
- lost in a forest
- im broken
- vanished
- bashed against the wall
- spoon
- hemorrhage
- surrounded in warmth
- only the forest may hear me
- i didn't know
- alone
- the father, the son, and the holy spirit
- pain
- between the weight
- emptied
- i can no longer do
- the night sky will always be there for me
- body disconnected
- at night
- not again
- that moment
- every detail
- have a seat beside me
- you never made room
- nothing prepares you for this
- fast thoughts
- blast off
- fall sunset
- depressed
- submerged
- park bench
- cover my skin
- sit back and relax
- let it pass
- getting through it
- what do you want from this
- hang my coat up
- mind
- remove the watifs
- the by-product of torment
- thriving, blooming
- bathe in comfort
- guide me
- tried my best
- cooled down
- hurt hidden by anger
- bleachers
- numb for now
- lift me up
- to be heard
- please, mother nature
- attacked
- still here
- my soul is complete
- here to live
- clear headed, mostly
- vulnerable
- feelings
- refusal
- fountain
- i want you
- hang in there
- puffs
- tear me apart
- blood
- sunbleached
- for friends
- unstoppable
- unleash
- re-entering this world
- from your point of view
- hold onto it tight
- pause life
- in the driver's seat
- you told me
- don't tell me
- handle yourself
- happiness on a string
- i see
- a love letter to nail painting
- who i thought i was
- i am
- torn out of myself
- a different sky
- keeping going
- a hug from mother nature
- mind vs fire
- pulled back into reality
- dust
- my brain fills my chest
- a blanket of chimes
- this rock
- in another place
- finger feelings
- grainy lights
- i am the coal of your tree
- i thought it was me i thought it was them
- i know you're somewhere in there
- you need to
- almost taken over
- above all, stretched too thin
- tiptoeing towards despair
- its gone
- on that island
- it hits harder when you feel like you've got nothing left
- warm body glazed mind
- i can let me be me
- day dreaming another brain