here is some poetry to externalize some internal stuff in 2025, "sorted" by newest on top, and oldest on the bottom:

• this rock
• in another place
• finger feelings
• grainy lights
• i am the coal of your tree
• i thought it was me i thought it was them
• i know you're somewhere in there
• you need to
• almost taken over
• above all, stretched too thin
• tiptoeing towards despair
• its gone
• on that island
• it hits harder when you feel like you've got nothing left
• warm body glazed mind
• i can let me be me
• day dreaming another brain