i am frozen with fear at times
the fear of another human
but i can tell myself now
that there is nothing to fear
i just need my body to believe
it's the only one who doubts my words
i'm sorry i let this happen to you
you didn't deserve that
at one point
i thought you did
but that's because i couldn't see
were true all along
you told me
without words
you made me feel
when i should have left
but i didn't
i abandoned myself
i let everything go
down the drain
everything and everyone i ever loved
but i still bear seeds
so i start as a new sprout
the old self is gone
completely
i can trust myself now
it's hard
but i can
and no legal system
authority
weapon
or pain
can take that from me