feeling unsafe when you know you are safe
is the worst feeling ever
it feels like your body is lying to you
even though it knows the truth

every thought
becomes an interruption of fear
a jolt of anxiety
an instant sense of feeling trapped
with absolutely zero hope

you know there is hope
and brightness
in the future
and that you arr through the worse
you just cannot
convince yourself

you are a burden to your own mind
the shoes you wear
to protect your feet
are too heavy to walk in

so you kick them off
and stay inside
helpless
on the bed

taking care of yourself
isn't even an option
mental stability
is the only thing you can aim for
if you stop ruminating