2026-02-12 1:30am

i want to be in my body again
i'm tired of being trapped in my head
it's too much

it's way too late to be writing poetry
but i have to
i know i need to fix my sleep schedule
i know what she says isn't true
i trust myself

i just need the universe
to give me a little more energy
i'm sorry if i did something
to deserve this
i don't know what i did
or if ill ever know
but i'll continue
to try harder

like, it really sucks
having to go through this
but i have to

it's  the only way forward
i need to drain a little
to move a little

it seems like
this is how things work

it isn't just a gas pedal
and a steering wheel
it seems like
there are
fine-tunable knobs
for everything

everything is an art
or, i guess,
everything is art

art is unavoidable
i will need to do it some day
because it keeps coming back to me

and i keep running away
and when you run away from art
you run away from yourself

it builds up to be released
it feelsvlike it's too much
for your body to hold
but it's not your body struggling to hold it
it's your body struggling to let it go
to let the universe take it

it's an exchange of energy