a drop always follows that great feeling,

not having to worry about anything for more than an hour,

it seems unreal, that humans get to experience this,

for more than one day at a time,

but in my head, its more delicate than thin glass,

its destroyed by simple utterances,

and then, by a feeling that is both completely hollow, but heavier than anything
you could possibly imagine,

when all you want, is real human connection,

without fear or worry, that they don't actually want it, that they are just
being nice,

without fear that i annoy them, or burden them, or bother them too much,

without fear that they didn't actually want to do that nice thing they did for
me