there's this fucking wild feeling i cant describe. i've never felt it before.

i can let myself do something, purely to make myself feel good.

knowing i can do this at anytime feels powerful.

it's unleashed a bliss inside of me that has been barred by me fighting against
myself.

it unlocks so many things.

i can appreciate, express, let go, and recover.

it wasn't that i needed to give myself permission, it was that i needed to be
aware i wasn't.