i saw that you needed to be heard,
and i poured my energy into that

i depleted myself to come to an understanding,

i was given promises, truth, and consideration,

only to discover that they were never really there

the rare sparks of joy, were worth the starvation of life,

but that's not me anymore

the pain, and the effort,

the entire vitality of my mental and physical body,

was traded,

for nothing

i am left only with what i need to find again