everything
every fucking thing
it all needs to stop

the electrical buzzing in the wall
behind my head
while i sleep

the extra task involved in every task
every single one of my needs not being met
the uncertainty
the lack of communication
the unknown timeline

i can't do it
this is too hard
this can't be life
this can't be something to look forward to

the information that i spent hours compiling
ignored
forgotten
unused

the constant discomfort
my bed
the constant unexpected and unwanted interactions
i hate it

please make it all stop
i cant do this
i have nothing
i can do nothing
i have exhausted all options

i like nothing
i cannot eat
i cannot sleep
so i cannot escape

there is no known
there is no room
everything is cramped
everything gets knocked over or moved

i have no control
please just make it stop
let me sleep for 3 days straight
i need a break from reality
i cant do it