2026-02-25 7:33

set to "drew barrymore" by SZA

i am here
this is where i am
in life

i'm at the entrance to a cave
containing
everything that i am

it all happened
i did that

i walked so far away from myself
for so long
that i forgot who i was

and that makes me want to cry
but there aren't enough tears
to get through all of it

i gotta take the memories
one water bottle at a time
and then toss that water bottle
so it can never be used again

i want to squeeze my fingers
into a fist
as hard as i can
until i draw blood from my palms

because of how deep my nails will press into
my abductor pollicis brevis
because of how deep my nails will press into
my flexor pollicis brevis

i will do it so hard
that opening my palms
is a struggle

cause there's a lot of that in me right now
it's really hard

i am grabbing every single thing i see
like a catch-the-falling-fruit video game

but my basket's got a fucking hole in it
and this game was designed by a 7 year old
so basket repairs weren't considered

because they need you there
to help them
no matter how hard it is
try to get to them

they need you

they need you like the plants need the sun
they need you like a calf with its mother

they need all you can give
without tearing yourself apart

so you can be there for them
because they need you