23 march 2024
my cat Box found out she can hop up on my bed. I have a loft bed with a desk underneath, she
just figured out she can use my ladder so now my bed is one of her sleeping spots now.
oddly enough i couldnt sleep at all last night. my parents left at 3am this morning to pick
up some obscure machine part and im in charge of getting my siblings to school and stuff.
i guess the anticipation of all this kept me up, why does sleep have to be so difficult :(
daylight savings also messed up my sleeping schedule big time. if it wasnt for all that i would've
gotten some school done while my siblings were at school but i caught up on some zzz's instead,
which i desperately needed.
i decided to sign up to 2 classes, but now i wish i only signed up to one, its sort of a do on your
own time kind of deals so theres no actual scheduled things i need to log into, but i feel like
sometimes i prioritize one class over the other and im aftaid of falling behind. oh well, this is
only temporary, i just gotta do good and make it through, and keep this in mind when i sign
up for my next class
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22 march 2024
hello, ~town! hope you all are doing well.
i feel like i need to start journaling again and i periodically remember about this place!
i've started online school for computer science recently and im procrastinating sooo bad ugh,
my desk is a mess and filled with distractions, i feel like i need to tidy up and im procrastinating
on that too. i just gotta get on it :(
also, mom keeps making me go out to help with siblings and stuff, not that helping out is a bad
thing, but i think its throwing off my productivity in a weird probably adhd way
Oh and looking through my home folder, i found that i uploaded some art for my http site here that
i never linked to, its a bunch of old doodles from 2020 and 2021
[sad stuff]
looking back, 2020 was such a blur but also it has been one of the most difficult times of my
life. one of my best friends passed away from cancer before the pandemic started and it had
a huge hit on my mental health and looking back on art i made at the time reminded me of that
(not that its noticable to an outsiders perspective, i tended to draw cute characters to cheer me up)
i got into a lot of surreal games like LSD dream emulator, i made a character based on the yellow
mascot and titled those drawings "escapism." idk i had this idea that it would be cool if i could
put the world on pause and slip away into an alternate world where there was nothing to stress
about, and LSD sort of alligned with that idea for me. if i tried to make music again i wanted it
to be around the theme of escapism as well.
of course now im in a better headspace compared to how i was before. i still miss them with all
my heart though. dealing with grief and loss is like a wound that will never fully heal, you just
learn to accept it.
[/sad stuff]
anyways, its getting late now, i should head off to bed soon.
tomorrow i will tidy up my desk and focus on school!
=^..^=
lol i have some more i want to write about, just some silly ramblings i want to say.
I've started using my old crap-top again lately. back in school when this was my only laptop,
i would bash it for it's crappiness becuase it wasnt powerful enough for my needs (gaming and
drawing)
recently i found out it actually has a 64bit cpu, it originally ran a 32bit version of windows
7 starter so i just assumed it was a 32bit device. although not every 64bit distro works on this
for whatever reason. performance is slightly better on 64bit i think?? using a modern browser
is still garbage tho.
this laptop is a really really good on-the-go device, as long as theres an outlet. i really like
the keyboard too, feels satisfyingly clicky for a rubber dome keyboard. its really fun to just type on
i have it running bodhi linux, which is one of the only oses i found thats not tty only that runs
good on this. i also have bodhi running on a windows xp era tablet pc (which ive turned into a scummvm
steamdeck-like device)
the best part?? this is my favourite device for logging into ~town!
ok hope you liked my late night tech review goodnight!!
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29 january 2023
hello ~town
i've gotten a second job recently at a fast food place. i thought it was going well but now im second
guessing myself. the supervisor believes me to be a slacker and they're cutting way back on my hours.
its rediculous becuase im new to the industry and i think im doing the best i can and she straight up
said to my face that she has no patience in me. :( if this continues to not work out im gonna quit.
over christmas time my poor car broke town when i got back home (lesson learned, check your oil and
dont let it go dry ;0;) so my parents helped me buy an old 2003 jeep and now i owe them back. the jeep
runs much better in the harsh icy weather than the car did.
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16 june 2022
ive been messing around on my spare laptops lately. i installed kde neon on my old previous laptop (dubbed the silver
laptop) and installed the skeumorphic Oxygen theme on it and it goes with the hardware pretty good! i like it a lot.
ive also been trying to find a good os to run on my acer netbook. its really hard to find good 32bit linux distros
nowadays :( and plus the screen is so small that DEs are sometimes unusable because some windows go beyond the screen
making buttons on the bottom of the window unusable. I have alpine installed right now (and its what im using to type
this tonight), i cant get xorg or any DEs to work on here for some reason but thats alright, it performs really good
as a terminal machine. and who needs desktops when you got tmux amiright?? so yea im gonna use this as a dedicated terminal
and ssh machine for tilde and stuff.
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27 may 2022
ive figured out how to properly use nvidia prime
on my laptop last night! i had no clue why
nothing would run on my gpu in hybrid mode,
turns out i have to use prime-run. lutris has
an option in the game's config to automatically
run games on prime so thats cool!
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22 may 2022
hello ~town! i think its been a while since ive
written again. i hope everyone is having a good
day!
ive ended up in a hectic driving misshap yesterday,
thankfully nothing got wrecked or anything but
i still feel quite frazzled from that omg D:
its been busy with work lately. but on my time
off i am trying to spend more time outside and
gardening with mom. trying to take advantage of
the nice weather before summer and my allergies
come around. i feel like its beneficial to my
mental health.
i should also try to do some spring cleaning,
i've accumulated a lot of stuff lately. and dad
found me an atari 2600 from a retro gaming store
in seattle so i gotta find a spot for that, the
thing is massive!
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26 march 2022
hello from my new teracube 2e! im upgrading to
this phone from my samsung galaxy s5 which ive used
for the past couple years which works great with
the /e/ rom, which is a custom de-googled android.
i bought this one with /e/ as well.
i wanna figure out how i can root my old phone now
i volunteered at my younger siblings and went with
them to the ski hill to go snowboarding and help out
with the kids. it was a lot of fun re-learning how
to snowboard, and my little brother appreciated that
i was there
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17 march 2022
its been a while since i've logged in here. typing this on
my pocketchip because why not?
ive been trying to reorganize my room/ getting rid of stuff
i dont need. i got myself an e-reader so im downloding my
books on it and im gonna give away my physical books. i need
to find where i can download my manga and graphic novels.
daylight savings sucks!! im trying really hard to fix my
sleep schedule and then daylight savings comes along and im
sleeping in till almost noon again :(
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23 january 2022
so i tried to figure out pci passthrough again the other day and turns out my laptop's hardware doesnt support it :,)
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21 january 2022
wow i just realized my 22nd birthday is coming up. my past couple birthdays have been depressing with the pandemic happening and all, but this year im inviting some friends to come to the dinosaur museum, i think that will be fun.
my previous arch install broke somehow do i decided to give endeavour os a shot, accidentially deleted some doodles from the past month when i thought i backed them up, oh well. other than that i really like it so far, i love the default purple xfce theme. i found a python thing called ptxconf that allows me to properly have a multi monitor setup with my pen tablet and have the mouse map properly.
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08 january 2022
ive been feeling like crap lately. maybe its seasonal depression from the winter, idk. i cant wait for it
to warm up, its been -30-40 for the past month or two, it sucks lol. starting next week is supposed to warm
up and i really hope it stays that way.
winter driving where i live has to be one of the scariest things i have to experience.
i bought a domain and found a different webhost on the new year, it has support for php and stuff and that
makes me want to learn about backend programming which sounds fun.
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18 december 2021
got i3 running on kde instead of kwin and its pretty cool!
using picom for a background blurring effect on inactive
windows and i like it a lot! i really like the aesthetics
and functionality of kde along with the window tiling.
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12 december 2021
today was overwhelming oh my god. im happy im able
to use the backroom and reorganizing things as a
way to escape the crowd. woohoo sensory overload
for like 8 hours :'0
i remembered that i found mp3s of monstercat's first
30 albums and im listening through it all and watching
the visualizer on winamp. i dont really listen to edm
like this that much anymore but this helps silence
my thoughts which is nice, thats probably why i
listened to monstercat so much when i was younger.
i found a python thing called beets that lets you
fix metadata in audio files, i gotta remember to do
stuff with that once i boot back into linux.
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05 december 2021
made the mistake of accidentally eating cereal with
sour milk.
also feeling incredibly drained from work omg.
i managed to book a few days next week off.
also also, despite being mentally drained i actually
feel motivated to draw again! im trying to get myself
to draw actual scenes with my characters in them and
im finally trying to draw my comic ideas which is a
lot of fun.
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27 november 2021
had an insane dream last night about being lost in space and ended up sleeping in until noon,
woops. it was one of those dreams that you'rejust like "...wow" right after waking up, and
then realizing it was kinda dumb after a while lmao!
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25 november 2021
i wanna be creative but im freaking tired.
working retail at christmas sucks i hate dealing with miserable people all
day, it really takes its toll on my mental energy. i found out that helping
to keep the place clean helps though
currently erasing some vhs tapes by recording nothing on them, then i want to
compile some videos for them to make mixtapes! i bought another chip computer
so i can upload videos to it to play through my vcr but ive been playing
pico 8 games on it lol.
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13 november 2021
got my back brakes fixed today, it took all
afternoon but all my brakes work properly now.
they did tell me i need new shocks eventually but
im gonna save up before i spend probably another
almost thousand bucks :,(
cars are very expensive
spent the rest of the day at home watching saiki k
with my cat
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09 november 2021
winter driving begins, yay /s ;0;
its crazy how fast things can change, yesterday was
fine and then it snowed last night and driving
conditions are incredibly slick.
getting my brakes looked at so now im stranded at
the canadian tire lol
car update:
yep turns out my brakes are really bad, im happy i
finally got this done before they got worse so its
actually safe to drive, i have a feeling this will
help a lot during the winter so my car isnt a big
clunky figure skater on the road lol
its gonna set me back a lot of money sadly
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07 november 2021
not looking foward to working the christmas season.
its just so busy working retail sometimes i feel
like im going through a mental shutdown or
something.
ive been speculating since i was like 13 that i
was maybe possibly neurodivergent, although i didnt
know that word at the time, kids called me quirky
and treated me differently and i knew something was
up.
since the pandemic started i researched on tumblr
about autism and adhd because they seemed interesting,
sources elsewhere where like autism speaks garbage,
but i find myself relating a lot of the experiences
other people shared, and i pay attention to what
i do in some situations and realize that those are
traits for thosw neurotypes.
im not diagnosed but i heard its difficult for afab
folks to get diagnosed and its worse when youre an
adult :(
ive been putting off going to canadian tire to have
my brakes looked at, im gonna do it tonight after work,
theyre only gonna get worse and more dangerous if
i dont do anything about it, id rather be at home
on my laptop
also also, im still trying to figure out what i want
to do with all my extra computers, whenever dad has
an old computer he doesnt need he'll give em to me
because i like old computers, i have a little nas
server that has alpine on it and idk if i want it to
be a media server to watch my pirated anime on or to
turn it into a minecraft server, but i doubt its
powerful enough for that. and i have a some extra
computers that i use if my main laptop is busy for
that faux multi monitor experience and i use it to
ssh into my nas. i also have my old main laptop that
goes into grub rescue after i tried to install mint.
its hard drive is dying though so thats probably why
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29 october 2021
figuring more stuff out for my system, discovered a script called kitty-cat that lets me change the font and colour scheme easily.
also found out that i can easily mount my drives using udisks2, i did figure out how to put my internal extra drive in fstab
but that caused my boot time to slow down drastically, it took a few minutes to get to the display manager.
some less positive news though, i recently learned my grandma has breast cancer, it sounds like its all getting taken care of
but i also learned it runs in the family which is Not Fun. :(
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