~machine_cat@TTBP



23 march 2024

my cat Box found out she can hop up on my bed. I have a loft bed with a desk underneath, she just figured out she can use my ladder so now my bed is one of her sleeping spots now.

oddly enough i couldnt sleep at all last night. my parents left at 3am this morning to pick up some obscure machine part and im in charge of getting my siblings to school and stuff. i guess the anticipation of all this kept me up, why does sleep have to be so difficult :( daylight savings also messed up my sleeping schedule big time. if it wasnt for all that i would've gotten some school done while my siblings were at school but i caught up on some zzz's instead, which i desperately needed.

i decided to sign up to 2 classes, but now i wish i only signed up to one, its sort of a do on your own time kind of deals so theres no actual scheduled things i need to log into, but i feel like sometimes i prioritize one class over the other and im aftaid of falling behind. oh well, this is only temporary, i just gotta do good and make it through, and keep this in mind when i sign up for my next class



22 march 2024

hello, ~town! hope you all are doing well.

i feel like i need to start journaling again and i periodically remember about this place!

i've started online school for computer science recently and im procrastinating sooo bad ugh, my desk is a mess and filled with distractions, i feel like i need to tidy up and im procrastinating on that too. i just gotta get on it :(

also, mom keeps making me go out to help with siblings and stuff, not that helping out is a bad thing, but i think its throwing off my productivity in a weird probably adhd way

Oh and looking through my home folder, i found that i uploaded some art for my http site here that i never linked to, its a bunch of old doodles from 2020 and 2021

[sad stuff]

looking back, 2020 was such a blur but also it has been one of the most difficult times of my life. one of my best friends passed away from cancer before the pandemic started and it had a huge hit on my mental health and looking back on art i made at the time reminded me of that (not that its noticable to an outsiders perspective, i tended to draw cute characters to cheer me up) i got into a lot of surreal games like LSD dream emulator, i made a character based on the yellow mascot and titled those drawings "escapism." idk i had this idea that it would be cool if i could put the world on pause and slip away into an alternate world where there was nothing to stress about, and LSD sort of alligned with that idea for me. if i tried to make music again i wanted it to be around the theme of escapism as well.

of course now im in a better headspace compared to how i was before. i still miss them with all my heart though. dealing with grief and loss is like a wound that will never fully heal, you just learn to accept it.

[/sad stuff]

anyways, its getting late now, i should head off to bed soon. tomorrow i will tidy up my desk and focus on school!

=^..^=

lol i have some more i want to write about, just some silly ramblings i want to say.

I've started using my old crap-top again lately. back in school when this was my only laptop, i would bash it for it's crappiness becuase it wasnt powerful enough for my needs (gaming and drawing)

recently i found out it actually has a 64bit cpu, it originally ran a 32bit version of windows 7 starter so i just assumed it was a 32bit device. although not every 64bit distro works on this for whatever reason. performance is slightly better on 64bit i think?? using a modern browser is still garbage tho.

this laptop is a really really good on-the-go device, as long as theres an outlet. i really like the keyboard too, feels satisfyingly clicky for a rubber dome keyboard. its really fun to just type on

i have it running bodhi linux, which is one of the only oses i found thats not tty only that runs good on this. i also have bodhi running on a windows xp era tablet pc (which ive turned into a scummvm steamdeck-like device)

the best part?? this is my favourite device for logging into ~town!

ok hope you liked my late night tech review goodnight!!



29 january 2023

hello ~town

i've gotten a second job recently at a fast food place. i thought it was going well but now im second guessing myself. the supervisor believes me to be a slacker and they're cutting way back on my hours. its rediculous becuase im new to the industry and i think im doing the best i can and she straight up said to my face that she has no patience in me. :( if this continues to not work out im gonna quit.

over christmas time my poor car broke town when i got back home (lesson learned, check your oil and dont let it go dry ;0;) so my parents helped me buy an old 2003 jeep and now i owe them back. the jeep runs much better in the harsh icy weather than the car did.



16 june 2022

ive been messing around on my spare laptops lately. i installed kde neon on my old previous laptop (dubbed the silver laptop) and installed the skeumorphic Oxygen theme on it and it goes with the hardware pretty good! i like it a lot. ive also been trying to find a good os to run on my acer netbook. its really hard to find good 32bit linux distros nowadays :( and plus the screen is so small that DEs are sometimes unusable because some windows go beyond the screen making buttons on the bottom of the window unusable. I have alpine installed right now (and its what im using to type this tonight), i cant get xorg or any DEs to work on here for some reason but thats alright, it performs really good as a terminal machine. and who needs desktops when you got tmux amiright?? so yea im gonna use this as a dedicated terminal and ssh machine for tilde and stuff.



27 may 2022

ive figured out how to properly use nvidia prime on my laptop last night! i had no clue why nothing would run on my gpu in hybrid mode, turns out i have to use prime-run. lutris has an option in the game's config to automatically run games on prime so thats cool!



22 may 2022

hello ~town! i think its been a while since ive written again. i hope everyone is having a good day!

ive ended up in a hectic driving misshap yesterday, thankfully nothing got wrecked or anything but i still feel quite frazzled from that omg D:

its been busy with work lately. but on my time off i am trying to spend more time outside and gardening with mom. trying to take advantage of the nice weather before summer and my allergies come around. i feel like its beneficial to my mental health.

i should also try to do some spring cleaning, i've accumulated a lot of stuff lately. and dad found me an atari 2600 from a retro gaming store in seattle so i gotta find a spot for that, the thing is massive!



26 march 2022

hello from my new teracube 2e! im upgrading to this phone from my samsung galaxy s5 which ive used for the past couple years which works great with the /e/ rom, which is a custom de-googled android. i bought this one with /e/ as well.

i wanna figure out how i can root my old phone now

i volunteered at my younger siblings and went with them to the ski hill to go snowboarding and help out with the kids. it was a lot of fun re-learning how to snowboard, and my little brother appreciated that i was there



17 march 2022

its been a while since i've logged in here. typing this on my pocketchip because why not?

ive been trying to reorganize my room/ getting rid of stuff i dont need. i got myself an e-reader so im downloding my books on it and im gonna give away my physical books. i need to find where i can download my manga and graphic novels.

daylight savings sucks!! im trying really hard to fix my sleep schedule and then daylight savings comes along and im sleeping in till almost noon again :(



23 january 2022

so i tried to figure out pci passthrough again the other day and turns out my laptop's hardware doesnt support it :,)



21 january 2022

wow i just realized my 22nd birthday is coming up. my past couple birthdays have been depressing with the pandemic happening and all, but this year im inviting some friends to come to the dinosaur museum, i think that will be fun.

my previous arch install broke somehow do i decided to give endeavour os a shot, accidentially deleted some doodles from the past month when i thought i backed them up, oh well. other than that i really like it so far, i love the default purple xfce theme. i found a python thing called ptxconf that allows me to properly have a multi monitor setup with my pen tablet and have the mouse map properly.



08 january 2022

ive been feeling like crap lately. maybe its seasonal depression from the winter, idk. i cant wait for it to warm up, its been -30-40 for the past month or two, it sucks lol. starting next week is supposed to warm up and i really hope it stays that way.

winter driving where i live has to be one of the scariest things i have to experience.

i bought a domain and found a different webhost on the new year, it has support for php and stuff and that makes me want to learn about backend programming which sounds fun.



18 december 2021

got i3 running on kde instead of kwin and its pretty cool! using picom for a background blurring effect on inactive windows and i like it a lot! i really like the aesthetics and functionality of kde along with the window tiling.



12 december 2021

today was overwhelming oh my god. im happy im able to use the backroom and reorganizing things as a way to escape the crowd. woohoo sensory overload for like 8 hours :'0 i remembered that i found mp3s of monstercat's first 30 albums and im listening through it all and watching the visualizer on winamp. i dont really listen to edm like this that much anymore but this helps silence my thoughts which is nice, thats probably why i listened to monstercat so much when i was younger.

i found a python thing called beets that lets you fix metadata in audio files, i gotta remember to do stuff with that once i boot back into linux.



05 december 2021

made the mistake of accidentally eating cereal with sour milk.

also feeling incredibly drained from work omg. i managed to book a few days next week off.

also also, despite being mentally drained i actually feel motivated to draw again! im trying to get myself to draw actual scenes with my characters in them and im finally trying to draw my comic ideas which is a lot of fun.



27 november 2021

had an insane dream last night about being lost in space and ended up sleeping in until noon, woops. it was one of those dreams that you'rejust like "...wow" right after waking up, and then realizing it was kinda dumb after a while lmao!



25 november 2021

i wanna be creative but im freaking tired.

working retail at christmas sucks i hate dealing with miserable people all day, it really takes its toll on my mental energy. i found out that helping to keep the place clean helps though

currently erasing some vhs tapes by recording nothing on them, then i want to compile some videos for them to make mixtapes! i bought another chip computer so i can upload videos to it to play through my vcr but ive been playing pico 8 games on it lol.



13 november 2021

got my back brakes fixed today, it took all afternoon but all my brakes work properly now. they did tell me i need new shocks eventually but im gonna save up before i spend probably another almost thousand bucks :,(

cars are very expensive

spent the rest of the day at home watching saiki k with my cat



09 november 2021

winter driving begins, yay /s ;0;

its crazy how fast things can change, yesterday was fine and then it snowed last night and driving conditions are incredibly slick.

getting my brakes looked at so now im stranded at the canadian tire lol


car update: yep turns out my brakes are really bad, im happy i finally got this done before they got worse so its actually safe to drive, i have a feeling this will help a lot during the winter so my car isnt a big clunky figure skater on the road lol

its gonna set me back a lot of money sadly



07 november 2021

not looking foward to working the christmas season. its just so busy working retail sometimes i feel like im going through a mental shutdown or something.

ive been speculating since i was like 13 that i was maybe possibly neurodivergent, although i didnt know that word at the time, kids called me quirky and treated me differently and i knew something was up.

since the pandemic started i researched on tumblr about autism and adhd because they seemed interesting, sources elsewhere where like autism speaks garbage, but i find myself relating a lot of the experiences other people shared, and i pay attention to what i do in some situations and realize that those are traits for thosw neurotypes.

im not diagnosed but i heard its difficult for afab folks to get diagnosed and its worse when youre an adult :(


ive been putting off going to canadian tire to have my brakes looked at, im gonna do it tonight after work, theyre only gonna get worse and more dangerous if i dont do anything about it, id rather be at home on my laptop


also also, im still trying to figure out what i want to do with all my extra computers, whenever dad has an old computer he doesnt need he'll give em to me because i like old computers, i have a little nas server that has alpine on it and idk if i want it to be a media server to watch my pirated anime on or to turn it into a minecraft server, but i doubt its powerful enough for that. and i have a some extra computers that i use if my main laptop is busy for that faux multi monitor experience and i use it to ssh into my nas. i also have my old main laptop that goes into grub rescue after i tried to install mint. its hard drive is dying though so thats probably why



29 october 2021

figuring more stuff out for my system, discovered a script called kitty-cat that lets me change the font and colour scheme easily. also found out that i can easily mount my drives using udisks2, i did figure out how to put my internal extra drive in fstab but that caused my boot time to slow down drastically, it took a few minutes to get to the display manager.

some less positive news though, i recently learned my grandma has breast cancer, it sounds like its all getting taken care of but i also learned it runs in the family which is Not Fun. :(