what if i just died, actually
what if i collapsed on the ground, losing consciousness in an instant, letting the winds take my ragdolled body wherever they please
taking me to far away lands, showing me beautiful hills and forests and mountains and canyons and plains and flowers and grass
for me to not enjoy, nor see, nor experience
for i am dead
and with me all my worries are dead too
and all my debts and all my pain and all my suffering, which turned out to be for naught
and every unfelt blade of grass brushing across my limp cold body is a day i didn't live through