Today I spent some time reading the source code for feels. I'm trying to implement a simple blogging system at work to allow for sharing of documents and what not. Didn't get much done, without much surprise.
I'm trying to schedule some time to work on reading and math, but my anxiety levels are a bit high. I wonder if I can lower them with a regular schedule, or if that in itself is causing more anxiety.
Hmph.
i'm working on a new database called rhodes. it's for work and school, but now it's primarily work as school is done. school is fun, but im worried that somehow im not actually a good student and that i need to understandt the material better than anyone else. this sort of drive also puts me at odds with people irl and also people at work. perhaps if i find a place where i can medidate on myself as a person without caring about spelling things well or writing well at all, maybe there i can find the peace to be honest and admit things like that outloud.
here goes nothing
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