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I just read this: https://mough.xyz/2476/play-the-game and it clicks with me like a MF... I've bought into the zen idea of minimalism like many others. And now I'd like to just explore my thoughts about it here in this post. Note: For at probably 10+ years, this philosophy has been in the back of my mind. Its introduction to my mind happened way back when I was Christian in my teens. The whole idea back then was, "God is enough." Well, turns out, when you slowly lose the ability to get any comfort from your belief in God, that idea starts to lose traction. Later on, after I gave up on Christianity, I started meditating, mainly for escapism. I was going through a mental hell healthscape (hellthscape?). It was necessary at the time. I'm amazed I made it through that without getting addicted to benzos. Later on, I got a bit better and stuck with this general belief in Buddhist ideas about the self, and experimented with meditation. I believe that this minimalist, or anti-expansion, mindset influenced my decisions every day. I have a feeling that it aligned with in-grained self-limiting beliefs very nicely, making me feel less disappointed with the inevitable outcome of a fear of life: stagnation. I think more recently, I've inadvertently found ways, if small, to break out of that. My passion for things inspires me to create and to learn and to... in a way, worship. That's the whole deal with my tilde.town/~soda/w7/ page. I want to keep building that out simply as an expression of my love for the design of that OS and what it means to me. Side note: Maybe another blog post coming about that. I've collected some resources concerning that! I'll hopefully add more to this later. If you're on tilde.town, feel free to email me about this or link me an article about similar stuff. I want to think about this more. I've never questioned my viewpoint on this before! ~soda