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I went on a little journey here tonight looking up bipolar, wondering if I have that. I realized that I see everyone through a fearful lense now. I'm doing pretty badly, actually. The good news is while high one night I suddenly had a similar realization, the precursor to the above: My mental health is actually really bad. I need to do some stuff for it. Exercise, meditation, sleep, etc. So I'm starting to do that now. I juuust started so we'll see how it goes. So far the past two days have been alright. I got all my goals in. I'm hoping meditation/plant medicine will help me get set straight. Hoping I don't fall under the symptoms of some crazy mental health condition. Fun stuff. I think the killer part of it is not feeling like I'm part of the rest of the world. I don't feel connected to and seen by anyone else in my life. Just a sense of belonging would do wonders for me. But it ain't easy. I think I broke somethin' up there in my noggin'. 2020 was too powerful. Steven