day #2 of one meal a day
almost ate dinner
was planning on it
but we ended up not going to 7/11
and i would have had to clean the frying pan
so i just decided not to eat again
don't have the energy
or the will to eat something i don't find tasty
to force myself to eat
it's nice to know if i ever wanna die the aurora bridge is only a 40 minute bus ride away
it's comforting to know if all else fails suicide is always an option
i don't like discussing politics with you because i always feel like you're
just in it to argue
and do that self-destructive thing where you just start arguments because "an argument, at least that's familiar, at least i know how to deal with those"
i'm sorry
my politics are not performative i just clam up because i'm so averse to conflict
me: loves being enby
also me: enjoys being called she/her sometimes???? enjoys imagining if i were a passing trans woman???????
also also me: loves being enby
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i mean like
hearing she/her makes me feel good for a moment
but then it makes me feel bad
because it reminds me of how much work i have to do? how much further i still have to go?
i don't know
i don't think anybody reads these anymore
i've stopped updating feels after that time i nuked my whole backlog of entries
just to get rid of one entry, for some reason
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i feel like i'll never get to start hrt
not as long as i live under my parents' wing
but in this economy, how can i ever NOT rely on them?
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HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH JUST KIDDING
I WANT TO FORGET I WROTE THIS
BECAUSE GENDER IS A FUCK
I'M TOO HIGH FOR THIS
SO
JK
I'M JUST ENBY
NOTHING TO SEE HERE, MOVE ALONG