Don't expect well written entries. I use this as a "personal diary", it simply happens that I keep it public.

23 october 2020

2 days ago, on wednesday I went to a party for freshmen organized by some students at the uni. The event itself was kinda sad, the idea was that you had to go with people that you met in class to get to know them a bit more. No one knew that, everyone (me included) thought that we'd meet new people at the event itself. Apart from that it ended up being a nice evening.

I went with two of my friends that I knew from highschool, we hoped to get to know someone new there. When we arived they made us take seats outside in the open, the place was nice, really cool looking and it was infront of the castle in my city. The waiter brought us wine for the table, the starters and after that the main course. The early evening was alright, had some good conversation and we brought up some of our shared experiences, it wasn't bad at all.

After a while one of my friends wanted to leave, he had a bit too much wine and was kinda sleepy, so he left the two of us. I personally didn't want to leave until I got to know someone at that event, after all we went there to meet new people. Because I'm not the most confident human being in that kind of social setting I thought it would have been a good idea to chug down some more alcohol to relax myself, and oh boy if I was relaxed. Not so long after my friend left a guy selling roses approched us, he saw that we were looking at a table with some girls and was trying to convince us to buy them roses. We declined instantly as both of us were not that confident, but that didn't matter the guy still insited and insisted, because of that the girls at the table we were looking at noticed us. The rose vendor left after seeing that we wouldn't buy his roses, after a few minutes I decided to muster all my courage and stand up and go to the girls we were looking at, I think the fact that I was tipsy helped with that. I aproached the table and guess started with the dumbest shit I could have came up with: "Hi, I was wondering are you here for the event for the freshmen?". Like... everyone there was there because of that event, none the less it made for a good opening and I was able to have a long conversation because of that. After a few minutes my friend joined us and we started talking about some trivial things, you know just to make conversation. Everything was going well, we ended up being the last group to leave, we were pretty much the only ones at that bar. There was just one other girl from another table that was all alone, some of the girls noticed that and asked her if she wanted to join since she was all by herself. Even tho I'm pretty cringe in situations like these I guess the more the marrier. I gotta say, this girl that joined us was badass, she was a chinese girl that arrived in Italy a year ago, she spent all of the last year just learning italian and with just one year of experience in italian she decided to attend to an italian university. I was mindblown.

The evening was proceding quite well and I was glad I had the balls to talk to some strangers at a bar (like I said, not the most confident human being). By the way, remember that rose vendor that approached us earlier? That guy came back and asked us if we wanted to buy roses, this time I convinced my friend to buy some roses. He gave one rose to the chinese girl and because he wanted to be all smooth and stuff like that said: "And for you, because you're called Rose, I'll give you two roses". I thought that was pretty smooth but I was tipsy so I don't know if it actually was. The rose vendor after a while came back for a 3rd time, and this time it was my time to buy roses. The vendor was pretty convincing: "Look some of them don't have roses, buy some roses", yeah that sounded convincing to me at the time OK? Anyway, I bought three roses and gave them all to this girl that I liked. After a while I did another thing that I would have never done if not for the alcohol, I want you to picture this... a guy that is super cringe that is also short, very short (I'm about 1.60m and I have 20 y/o D: ), I decided to ask for the number, and to my surprise, she actually gave me her number, despite me being not very attractive and being visibly drunk (at that point I was), and it wasn't a fake number either, I call that a big W in my book. Anyway we decided to leave and take some pictures by the big fountain in front of the castle, after that we all left and everyone went home. I've had this number for 2 days now, am I supposed to text her when I wanna ask her out or even just now? You know, without alcohol is hard to make these decisions...