I still feel.

that's the name of a song by half•alive (yt). it's tangential at best, but I like it.

When I'm furthest from myself
Feeling closer to the stars
I've been invaded by the dark
Trying to recognize myself when I feel I've been replaced

in a way, that's what this is here for. A log of how I was then and how I am now, so I can bring myself back to earth.



21 march 2025

being stuck in bed today, i don't wanna leave

yesterday was so nice too. why is it like this now? stupid & bad


addendum: i was complaining to my friend about this, and she told me to leave my room and open a window, even just going to the lounge of my dorm room

and that helped a lot

i need to remember that even going a very small distance is enough to help sometimes when im stuck. maybe not always, but sometimes