I still feel.

that's the name of a song by half•alive (yt). it's tangential at best, but I like it.

When I'm furthest from myself
Feeling closer to the stars
I've been invaded by the dark
Trying to recognize myself when I feel I've been replaced

in a way, that's what this is here for. A log of how I was then and how I am now, so I can bring myself back to earth.



23 may 2025

it is weird times now!

earlier this week i graduated from undergrad, which is weird and new.

and also bad, because the US is gonna be goofy funny for the forseeable future.

still, i have to keep in mind that things for me are going a whole lot better than they could be. i have a job to go to and i have family who care about me, and both of those are a big deal.

the job is to balance the parts of the world that i'm in direct contact with, but also not be ignorant to the parts of the world that i'm not. not an easy job, but not one i'm unique in facing or one i'm facing alone.

both of those facts are comforting in a way. they don't make it easier, but they do provide a different perspective and that's something i know is valuable