I still feel.

that's the name of a song by half•alive (yt). it's tangential at best, but I like it.

When I'm furthest from myself
Feeling closer to the stars
I've been invaded by the dark
Trying to recognize myself when I feel I've been replaced

in a way, that's what this is here for. A log of how I was then and how I am now, so I can bring myself back to earth.



25 july 2025

maybe it is not good for me to be on here right now, i worry that it makes me feel worse on social matters being able to see lots of people who know each other and not feeling like i can be a part of it even though i've tried.

but i've not tried very well.

it's a bit melodramatic to make a post like this on feels, but this isn't supposed to be a cry for help.

maybe i will be back sometime. i'll hold onto the ssh key <3

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