15 july 2019
Just got over a micro-episode of pretty intense depression. I think that maybe it made me see things more negatively, which led me to say some hurtful things.... but I'm not sure if I'm just deflecting. Or if I really do feel those things and am usually more diplomatic about it. Which means I still mean those things, right?
I'm not sure really which it is, or if it's either of them, or if it's not anything like that at all.
It's exhausting sometimes.