20 september 2017
Greetings from Beaverton Oregon, where it's pouring rain right now. Not just a little drizzle, but actually pouring a ton of rain. This is entirely why my partner and I and our child up and left our lives in Salt Lake City and moved here.
Well, that and the politics.
They (my partner) are non-binary and got a driver's license with a non-binary gender marker. Didn't have to supply any paperwork or anything, just said that's what they wanted and that's what they got. I find that completely amazing.
My gender feels? I have no idea. I was assigned male at birth, went through a period feeling genderfluid, tried living as a woman for a while, and now I'm in this strange jumbled state where I don't know what I am. It's all a big blurry mess, and right now I just feel like some sort of plug-in employee that does my job and gets paid. I'd like for that to change and feel more like a human being, but I'm not in that place right now. I'm hoping that typing out more of my feels will make me feel more human in the long run.
I dunno.