01 january 2022
CW: Covid
I'm trying to sort through my feelings right now, and hey, this thing is called "feels", right?
I just got done watching two TikToks in a row, of people in tears, talking about how they've had two shots of the vaccine, and had their booster, and wear masks everywhere, and now, both of them have testing positive for Covid.
My twitter feed is chock full of people talking about how they've now caught it, and they're scared, and it's happening more and more...
There's this disappointed sadness, where I feel like our culture and our governments aren't willing to take the necessary measures to ensure our safety, all because it would "hurt the economy."
Economy isn't going to matter if we are all sick and dying. And yes, I get that most people will survive this, but you know what, some people won't. And they don't deserve this. Even the worst anti-vaccine hate spewing pundit doesn't deserve the kind of visceral death that awaits them with this disease.
And the feels quickly morph to anger. Anger at inaction. Anger at the callousness. I read reddit posts full of servers who are being made to work while still positive and contagious. It's profits over lives on a massive scale, it's profits over lives on the small scale too. It's the unnerving lack of compassion that I keep seeing.
My feels don't seem of much use to me right now. Maybe sitting with them will lead to some kind of action, but for right now, I'm doing the few things that I can do - staying home as much as possible, getting the booster when I can.
I don't know how we heal from this. I don't know how to give forgiveness and grace to someone who adamantly refuses to do the right thing. I don't know how to live in this capitalist system that is grinding people to death for it's profits.