05 february 2023
The trip for work is upon me. Monday, I get in a metal tube and fly to Salt Lake City. Home of the first ban on HRT for teenagers.
I'm trying to have a bit of hope - my work is actually pretty decent when it comes to issues around diversity... at least they talk a good talk. We'll see what they're actually like and about in person for the next few days.
It is also bringing about a bunch of feels around myself and my identity (thanks brain, let's question everything! again! some more!). I just recently realized that some strange feelings when I present over-femme might be categorized as dysphoria that's reminding me, that oh, yeah, my gender falls more in the "nonbinary" space than it does in anything called "woman." idk, "woman adjacent", or "cacusing with the women" is probably more accurate.
oof. feels.