23 march 2020
Today I feel:
physical exhaustion a slight tightness in my chest ever-present twinge of anxiety in my solar plexus
medical trauma triggers 9/11 trauma triggers
inability to focus & prioritize tasks, even with Adderall in my system
worry boredom hunger weariness anxiety restlessness fear
comfort & peace in the knowledge that this is one moment, and there will be another, and another still
I haven't left my apartment at all in 4 days, and in 6 days before that.
I forget what the outdoors feels like.
And on and on and on and on and