10 may 2020
well, let's give this another try, shall we?
might put up the old ones back somewhere, but, shrug. those turned into a neverending wall of depression.
aside from that, not a lot to say.
coronavirus, lockdown, these things. lockdown is ending tomorrow, here.
I guess I'll be able to get certain things done, like finally getting that orchiectomy, or generally 'finishing' my transition.
seeing as I'm somewhat functional for once, I actually did the paperwork to get my name changed. that was earlier, during January.
it was treated real quick -- two days, took longer for the response letter to arrive to me. anyway, it was accepted, so now, Emily is official.
then I took an appointment to submit the paperwork for a new ID card (which some organizations will require to update my name in their systems).
been there before. getting these appointments takes like one month. so in the end, I filled and submitted the paperwork, and... lockdown happened.
so I haven't been getting news about my new ID card. no idea when it's going to be ready.
then I'll be able to get my info updated at various other places, which is more weight in favor of a gender marker change once I get there.
once that is done, along with the orchi, I will be able to consider my transition finished. minus still having to take HRT, but eh.
then there's also the whole voice thing.
dunno what to think of it, actually.
compared to last year, my 'default' voice has actually gotten softer and a bit higher pitched. and I'm able to produce a voice that sounds reasonably feminine to me, but it's hard to judge with a crapo microphone.
I need to actually train myself to use that voice and I guess I should be good.
I hope the coronavirus crisis will bring positive change.
dunno, but lockdown opens quite the window for questioning what has always been normal to a lot of people. capitalism, producing all sorts of crap for the sake of profit, pollution, etc...
we'll see.