17 september 2021
hey, blorg. long time no see.
truthfully, there hasn't been a lot going on in my life these days. atleast, nothing really noteworthy.
however: I did get the result for my gender change hearing, and it's positive!
the last big step of my transition is done, finally. I have yet to take care of some details, but there should be no major roadblock at this point.
the process has even been smoother than expected, for example my SSN has been updated without even having to request it.
(first digit of a French SSN reflects your gender, that is why it has to be updated)
tbh, most of the time this took was just waiting for things. changing your gender marker in France requires sending a request to your local court. you're then scheduled for a hearing, which takes 4 months or more. then after that, in my case it took them two more months to take their decision. add to this the time for you to receive the decision letter, date from which you get a 15-day delay for appealing the decision, then another 15 days for the decision to actually be applied. yeah well, takes a while.
this means I can try and get a job that hopefully doesn't suck. I still expect it to be a shitshow, but atleast I'm less likely to be discriminated against for being trans.
plus, I now have social workers who seem actually competent, which is pleasure. unlike some of the previous ones who try to tell you that '350€/mo isn't a lot but you can live on it', which, lol.
a job I would enjoy would be repairing things -- computers, electronic shito, or even appliances. not only because I enjoy that sort of work, but also because reusing and repairing things is going to be essential if we want to build a better world, rather than buying new things and throwing things away all the damn time.
otherwise, there's the avenue of being a coder, but I'm not sure how much I would enjoy that in a corporate setting.
I also did renovation work before the covid shitfest -- all sorts of shit, but mostly painting things. I painted like 27637342 doors, all dark grey. that is also work I can enjoy, but I'm not sure at all that I want to be a construction worker. it's just... the setting, being surrounded by big manly men. and also that if I'm expected to have my own vehicle and drive around, well... ugh.
bleh, you'll figure out something. you got this, Arisotura.
working on the DS is one thing that has always felt colorful to me, for some reason...
well.
turns out I have grapheme-color synesthesia.
that sort of thing has always felt 'normal' to me, in a sense that my brain has always been full of weird shit, so I just lived with it without putting much thought into it...
but now, thinking about it, it feels cool and weird.
I feel colors when reading numbers (and also letters, but it works better with numbers). and that's weird-- I don't actually see the synesthetic colors, my vision is unaltered, but I still feel that the numbers are colored. dunno how to explain it.
this sort of thing makes series of consecutive numbers (like the DS memory map, for example) feel satisfying to me.
and, who knows, maybe I can use this to my advantage... worst case, it makes my perception more colorful than the normal, which is nice in itself :P
my left eye still hurts, sometimes.
I had a branch hit it like 10 months ago, and that might have damanged it. I should probably be concerned at this point.
well, it doesn't hurt all the time, just 'wakes up' sometimes, and the eye functions completely fine. dunno what to think of it.
other concerning thing, the skylight in the bathroom is leaking, and I need to borrow a ladder so I can check it out.
plus, that skylight seems to be 100 years old. the surroundings are all moldy because the insulation is piss-poor.
oh well.