14 november 2021
posting from my parents' home.
I'm here for, well, reasons.
the whole social workers shito is atleast getting somewhere. slowly, but, well...
I might be able to get started on an internship in January. we'll see how that goes, I guess.
somehow I gained another synesthesia. weird shit. I now feel sound.
well, atleast it's not unpleasant, even though I have seen it get intense at certain times. right now, there's mostly just the sound of the AC, and this gives me pleasant tingling in my thighs.
we'll see how long this lasts, I guess. it's not really showing signs of wanting to go away. however, it may be induced by drugs, seeing as it became more pronounced after my last high. but even then, that's weird. I know people who do much more weed than me, and other fun shit, and they aren't developing synesthesia left and right. I guess, already having synesthesia, I might be prone to this? shrug.
also, why only now? I have been doing weed edibles since February and none of this occured -- I would often get some form of sound-related synesthesia, but only while high.
I do them once a week, sometimes twice, but never more. I'm not even getting any tolerance. I don't think I'm abusing the drug, at a rate of about 1g/month.
oh well.
one reason why I do this is that weed helps me with depression, much more than the antidepressants I tried before.
if things are going to be this way, so be it, I guess. synesthesia weirds me out, but it doesn't prevent me from functioning, unlike depression.
the IIfx died. I'll see if I can find out what died... I'm suspecting either the ROM, the CPU, or the FPU...
we'll see.