21 may 2018
I wrote a zine called BAD SHIT 2018
it's my problems
I'm reluctant to share
because I want it to look like I'm alright
I won't write "because I'm not alright"
or "even though I'm "etc
I just don't want people to be worried
I just don't want anyone going out of their way
I just don't want to admit I'm too weak to solve things myself
I just don't think anyone can help
I just don't
like want to come off as needy as a sad sack
as somebody they could help
too much bother; I couldn't help her, therefore nobody can be helped with anything because clearly I'm a lost cause too
in spite of all the progress before now
I want another anonymous output
I want to post dark shit and not have anyone worry
I want a solution to my motherfucking problems
I want an easier solution to my motherfucking problems
I want to shout into the void and have that help some damn how
it doesn't
seems like