14 september 2018
was literally too depressed to go to class today. i'm not sure why my brain is beginning to rationalize credits and grades as if they were equivalent to the spoons i have to deal with classes, but by and large my brain is at the very least cognizant that this beavhiour isn't okay. i need to call a therapist but unfortunately yet again i'm stuck in the cycle of being too lazy and sad to talk to anyone. i feel so horribly stuck and yet i just wallow in it.