04 december 2023
Whenever I make a post on "real" social media I end up checking up on it several times a day to see if anyone has interacted with it. Usually nobody has and it makes me a little sad. Despite knowing exactly how it's designed to get under my skin like that, it still does.
Maybe I'd be better off just deleting it all of it and stick to this + the 90% of things that never make beyond my local journal. I'm too mentally weak to handle something as innocuous as a views and upvotes counter. It turns me into a performer who will do anything for positive validation.
In an alternate universe I'm a live-streamer with polar opposite values from this version of me. I clap like a seal because the people throw fish.