27 february 2024
Two months in a row the pharmacy/dr's office have messed up causing me to have a treatment gap for my daily eczema medication. Last month the gap was 3 days and caused a massive flare up that I'm still recovering from. I wake up cut up and bloody from involuntary sleep scratching. The medication I have to use to prevent skin infections burns so bad. It feels like I fell in a vat of acid and ants are running all over me. It looks like it too. This is making the slow crawl out of poverty become another episode of watching everything wither and die again.
In other news my attempt to sell plasma was thwarted by the medication exclusion list. The very same medication I have to deal with a delay getting is also the reason I can't sell my blood for food money. Days like this seems like reality itself wants to annihilate me.
I've been sick and dealing with moving so I haven't been keeping up with world news. Today I learned about Aaron Bushnell and how many thousands of people are being murdered as the world passively watches. I broke down and wept over all this shit but nobody in my life has the patience to hear about it. I feel so damn helpless - I can barely help myself right now and I am forced to either watch or look away and pretend this is not happening.