26 march 2024
Bagels
I found some vegan cream cheese I'm not allergic to and made some bagels to enjoy it. Not being able to eat breads or most packaged foods from the store is inconvenient, but it's probably saved me from a different set of health problems if I was able to walk into a grocery store and buy whatever I wanted without regard for my allergies or money. I've become really good at surviving a situation most people could not handle. That used to be an egotistical thought to me, one I'd scold myself for entertaining. What I've come to realize is that's my "I'm such a good person hur-dur" shadow side that is a remnant of growing up in immersed in American conservatism.
So living as I do is a difficult thing that most could not. I can give myself credit for that without the insincere modesty. Home made bagels and cream cheese once a year are better than being able to have probably-not-great store bagels any time.