18 july 2024
It's been very hot. I haven't had AC in over a decade and soon it won't be a mere luxury anymore. Not having a penny to spare then suddenly having some has revealed to me what lies beneath a brain steeped in survival mode. Recent news in America has made me fearful for the future. I felt more optimistic when we were fighting deranged out-of-town fascists who came to threaten peaceful protests with their guns and ill-fighting body armor. I felt safer when the cops shot flashbangs and tear gas to disperse us. At least then the community was united against something.
I still feel as if I have until the end of the year to work before I allow the possibility of giving into despair. At least now I am well enough to run away if the need arises.