22 october 2024
I'm never going to have a "regular office job" ever again. whew I can't do them without burning out. The last burn out lit the fuse on a latent chronic illness and claimed most of my 30s. If I do it again it'll probably kill me. So I'm going to stop wasting my time skill building for the mythical good job with insurance that doesn't drain my life force and force me to pretend I care about their bottom line while the world burns.
I can operate and automate my linux machines well enough so I'll never need to purchase non-free sofware ever again, but I won't learn Yet Another Redundant Tool ever again. I don't have the mental capacity to gain expertise on poorly documented software with the only reward being things work exactly like they did before. Somewhere out there a recent CS grad is migrating a ghost town website from Perl Dancer to $current_framework that I originally migrated from RoR. I hope it doesn't take them as long to see the scam.
I'm going to put that energy into creating something beautiful before I die even if that choice hastens the end.