04 november 2024
I put cream on my face as directed. Still red. Still irritated. Far too itchy to get anything done today. I forgive myself. I'm more worried about letting the doctor down than I am with getting well. Foolish. She says my only job is to get well, but I hate doing things I'm bad at. I need to keep walking.
mental corrections:
- nothing works instantly. be patient
- you didn't choose this
- at least you recognize that being a people pleaser is silly and nobody even wants that
- everything you're good at is the result of doing things that don't provide immediate pleasure. play scales if you need a distraction