10 june 2019
My first feels! Sadly, not my best day today... I'm back home from university (which was not far at all, but I lived on campus for my first year), and I got to ride my bike through nearby canyons. I felt like I almost died I've pretty much been stationary the last few weeks so I'm glad I got some exercise. Being back home also means I can eat well and I get to sleep on my own bed, which is on ground level. Today was also the first sunny day in a few weeks. I guess I'm pretty happy. It's just that it's 1 in the morning and feel unecessarily anxious. I noted this last quarter as well, but I experience discomfort in the begining of vacations. It's hard to sleep, plain anxiety for no reason, and I lash out at my mom a lot. I think the struture of school stresses me out, always having to do something to stay afloat... I'm gonna sign off before this turns into more rambling...