24 january 2019
Life bullshit this past few days
Oh BOY lots of feels...
Alayna moving in
Alayna is moving into our garage. I hope it's an opportunity to improve her life. It helps her get out of that house with two parents whom she has nothing in common with. It's not that they're bad people, of course. It's just they're totally different from her. This doesn't really have anything to do with our relationship, of course. This is just a better arrangement for her. But I'd be lying if I said I didn't really like it... I just hope nobody gets the impression we're moving too fast. It wasn't even me who suggested it, it was kaniini.
More stuff with Alayna
I've given her my prescriptions and an inhaler. I guess she really is part of my life now. I've been saying I love her more and more. Nothing reciprocated yet... but I didn't really expect that. It's more me testing the waters. I've always said the best way to figure something out is to just try it.
I've begun calling her pet names besides friendo like babe and sweetie. I still need a distinct one from Alex.. She called me babe earlier and I swear to God I was gonna melt on the spot *squee*.
Thyroid issues
I'm getting put on a low dose of thyroid hormone as soon as my results get faxed over from Planned Parenthood to my doctor. Fucking finally. Hopefully I can feel normal again.
Less good news
I got diagnosed with moderate Alcohol Use Disorder. I was told in no uncertain terms that if I don't stop drinking, I'm going to die, because of interaction with my meds. Holy fuck. That's a Hell of a wakeup call. I don't know what to say yet, or think.
Conclusion
Things are really weird and stuff right now. Mostly positive stuff.
Hope things keep looking better.