15 june 2016

this summer feels scary and bad all of a sudden, and i'm not really sure what to do with it.

i'm trying to do well at lining up things to do, leaving myself low hanging fruit, giving myself permission to be a useless layabout once in a while, but whenever i turn the corner i find myself standing in a mist of unrelenting dread.

the air is thick and warm. i think i'm doing the best i can whenever i'm doing it. i have ups and downs. i crash and i soar and i am a thinking, feeling human.

you will not always feel like this.