05 july 2018
On call again. This is turning into my 4AM oncall journal, which is OK, I guess, right? :)
I feel like things are going really well for me lately. Almost feel bad saying that since a lot of
what I read is about people being despreately unhappy or dealing with incredibly heavy shit. My heart
goes out to each and every one of them.
My work situation is pretty great. I'm being challenged in ways I've never encountered before, but
rather than being paralyzed by it, feeling drowned and overwhelmed in a wash of the immensity of it
all, it's like I'm surfing! I take each challenge as it comes, do exactly as much as I can do
as well as I can do it, and I'm being consistently rewarded for that!
It's crazy but it's almost like I NEEDED to struggle and fight and slog through the last 20 years of my
career with all the ups and downs and all of it in order to actually be able to handle this moment.
I find myself thinking "Why didn't I do this/feel this way 20 years ago?" but maybe my younger self
COULDN'T have done this or felt this way because I wasn't ready. Or maybe that's just an excuse?
14 may 2018
Watching Dirty Money on Netflix. Outstanding documentary. Definitely recommend.
22 december 2017
Last day of work before a week's vacation. Gotta say I am so psyched. We're headed to Woodstock, VT. it's like a little currier&ives village from a story book.
I hope everyone reading this has something fun planned for the holidays, whichever you choose to celebrate :)
16 december 2017
Just a few days left in my current graveyard on call shift. Man, I can't wait to be done with this :)
Been teaching myself IOS programming in Swift. The language is pretty neat!
That's all for now. Time to get some sleep and hope the pager doesn't go off again :)
08 december 2017
Doing a stint of front line oncall. I pulled a night shift this time around. I really mostly don't
mind it much - where I work you get a comp day for every week's night shift you pull, but there are
aspects of it that are kind of hard.
In particular, when the pager is silent until it goes off at midnight or so is particularly jarring.
I've JUST hit deep sleep, so ehwn I wake to the pager I almost feel that sort of out of body experience
where you're going through the motions of doing what you need to do but it's like your brain lags behind
saying "Hey what? What are we doing? Umm. Sleep? Sleep is good. Oh, work. Yeah we can do that too.
Hey wait up!"
23 october 2017
Totally Love This Idea For a Community
The idea of a community built atop UNIX is fascinating to me. Looking forward to exploring and contributing here!