06 june 2019
breasts
Thu Jun 6 20:26:12 EDT 2019
So I ordered some breast forms about a week ago, and they got here yesterday. In essence, they're fake breasts that you can fit into a bra to help fill it out more, usually for trans women, drag queens, or women who want to have larger breasts (and not get surgery).
I'm not sure how I feel about them.
On the one hand, if I don't look at them, they feel really good and self-affirming. Not sure how to describe it except "they feel right."
However, every time I look at them (either by looking down or in the mirror), they just look wrong, and more than in a "they're new and I'm just not used to them" way.
I don't know if this is because I bought too large of a size (I bought BB which is between B and C cups). I'm not much of a "tit person" (as opposed to an "ass person") so maybe it's just that I don't find them attractive personally.
My fiancee assures me that they look good and I'm inclined to believe her, but I'm just not there yet.
I do think that they'd help me pass better in public, which is certainly good, but I wish I could do that with smaller breasts that I'd be more comfortable with.
Of course, none of this helps with the whole "not feeling trans enough" thing because "I'm trans, I'm going on hormones to grow breasts! If I don't want to grow them, then I should stop!" I know that's not the full story, obviously. I'm trans so I want to feel comfortable in my body and estrogen is about way more than just growing breassts.
I just don't know how I should feel about them, and maybe that's the worst part: the not knowing.
Oh and there's one more aspect that has me worried. I think these fakes are too big, but they're also probably close to what I'll end up having. So it's not just that they're fake, it's also that they're inevitable and they'll be coming in the future.
I wanna be a smol titty geeky gf but maybe the first half isn't meant to be.