06 november 2022
well well well well well!!!!!!
it's still november 5th for about thirty minutes more for me... which means it's my one year anniversary on town!!!!
god I have loved it here so much. i love being part of the community and offering my own little blocks in the big building going on here.
i've been working on hella projects!! and i've absolutely loved seeing folks in town and following what they've done. have appreciated the friends I've made here so much.
i really can't overstate how impactful having this environment has been. like... i always wanted to get into coding and web design and having my own website as a kid ("as a kid," i can get over myself lmao, i'm 20 and still definitely in Kid Realm, or I at least have the prescience to know I'll change so much in the next handful of years and beyond to look back on this period of my life as very young indeed) but I never knew where to start or really how to teach myself at all. this place really made the difference for me :) i'm learning everything I always wanted to learn and having a lot of fun in the process. projects upon projects here!
emotionally... wah!!! i think i've been alright actually? i mean. emotional spirals have definitely Been Occurring and have been difficult to deal with and i find myself often in a state where i feel frustrated and i feel like i need to Think about Scenarios in Certain Ways. Like... as if there's a correct sequence of words to think and then something will be revealed or solidified and i'll stop feeling so damn shitty. as if i can think my way through emotions. (virgo moon virgo moon virgo moon.) obviously this is just a way to punish myself for feeling bad as if it's my fault for not knowing how to think my way out of a mess.
but i have noticced that my baseline emotions are much more stable and more positive. god, especially compared to one year ago. baseline, i am much more chill at this point. i've been laughing a lot more recently. i've been letting things be good.
in any case things have been solid all around and I have loved how 2022 has gone for me this far. really just a solid year all around. lots of times hella enjoyed, lots of friends i've spent time with, lots of good memories made. i deserved a good year like this :) it's not over yet but like still. i'm really, really happy with how all this has gone lately.
i'm gonna go work on my "now" page!!!! ~herbe/now is gonna be my now page :) i'm gonna do some css updates over there and transition the rest of my main site to use the new css too.
peace!!