07 january 2023
i love the liminal space of early january.
there has been no grand lead-up that has focused on the january as itself; all the oh-look-a-new-year is really focused on the entire year ahead, not just the january on it's own. january is the start of things, but when i look back at years i've lived, i don't define them by their januaries. i think of what things were like in april, in october. sometimes in terms of decembers, too. but januaries are loose and light and woven into the beginnings, partials of new stories, beginnings and settings and starting over.
i love the liminal space of the first week of january.
i restarted testosterone yesterday!!! at a lower dose with a smaller needle than before. i'm really fucking excited about this, i've been hardcore missing testosterone for a while, i have journals about it since like, last august. and here i am! re-estroginization over and here's testosterone. fuck yeah. autism be damned my boy can work a gender.
this time around i'm grooving as a lesbian in full lesbian vibes, also i'm rocking xe/xem as The Pronouns (xe rhymes with they and xe/xem is plural pronouns. also xe're turns to xey're. but that's just like a style guide tbh the whole point is the funky art of them, no presh on the particulars)
looking forward to further voice drop, thicker body hair/more of it, general face shape stuff, hands... gonna b Epic....
it's nice cause like i'm Starting Testosterone with all the starting testosterone excitement but i've also gone through a year of full dose already so i have a bunch of progress i'm happy with, its a best of combo
hoping to cruise out and take it slow this year. been very very happy thus far this year :)