12 december 2023
Gratitude
- Madison for going out grocery shopping for me this morning
- the nextcloud to kubernetes migration is going reasonably well
- still a good amount of time off to rest an recover
Tarot
- Knight of Cups
- Ten of Swords
- The Lovers
In the past I have sought novelty and desire and become restless and resentful when boredom set in. This happened with relationships and jobs especially. When the newness wore off, I looked for a reason to bolt.
Some of this has caught up to catch me even now. I left my team at Wikimedia when something happened that I disagreed with rather than sticking with it with patience, jumping quickly into a new role without the safety net of the old team overwhelmed me and now I have to accept the consequences, rest, relax, and prepare for what's next.
The Lover's encourage me to see what inspires me and make sustainable connections to those things (be it people, roles, hobbies). I am reminded that tinkering with computers is something that gets me excited and my relationship with my partners noureshes me. Resting in those for a bit may help me gain back my fortitude.